audience: astarion

[mygod]

Comments

[haematocritical]

It's the potentially being lost forevermore part I'm less excited about.

[mygod]

More that you seek to accomplish?

[haematocritical]

When I say I want to live again, I do mean in a place I am accustomed to, being able to do things I enjoy.

[mygod]

You speak as though I'm meant to know anything about you.

[ they have not discussed anything personal at all which is admittedly what famine would prefer ]

[haematocritical]

[ good for they. ]

Oh come now, wanting to live is hardly a deep secret no one has ever had in their lifetime.

[mygod]

Most people take it for granted.

So I take it that you've had the option removed from you for a time?

[haematocritical]

[ his lips purse slightly. ]

Yes. For a time.

[mygod]

[ it is so hard to avoid describing facial expressions because of the mask it's fine ]

A difficult topic to speak on?

[haematocritical]

[ take off the mask.... show facial expressions but also somehow have a face that cannot be seen. become unknowable. ]

...

Yes, something like that. Although it annoys me that it is.

[mygod]

Oh? Don't care to force yourself through it?

[haematocritical]

It annoys me that I’m still bothered by it even after— [ … he huffs.

someone tell this man that trauma takes time because he’s mad it’s not instantly gone. ]

I didn’t push through enough for that bastard to still be snapping at my heels even now. That’s all.

[mygod]

[ hmm ]

Have you considered therapy?

[haematocritical]

[ haha. ]

What?

[mygod]

Discussing your emotions and trauma with a professional third-party that is meant to help you unpack and heal from events in your life.

[haematocritical]

That sounds entirely fake.

[mygod]

Yes, you sound like someone who hasn't been through therapy.

[haematocritical]

I'm not even sure we have that in Faerun.

[mygod]

It wouldn't be a bad investment. I'd even say your red friend might be good at it.

[haematocritical]

Karlach could charm her way into most people’s hearts. [ he’s not even mocking. ]

[mygod]

That's not entirely the point of therapy, but close enough.

[haematocritical]

I imagine it makes it easier?

[mygod]

Your therapist isn't meant to be your friend. They're supposed to fix you.

[ shrugs ]

I do not know enough about her to determine if she'd fully fit the bill.

[haematocritical]

I don’t need fixing.

[ he does. ]

But if that’s the standard, I’d have to look for you therapist person somewhere else. Karlach knows too many things about me.

[mygod]

Uh-huh.

It doesn't matter to me whether you actually seek it out or not. Only that if there are obstacles that persist for you, there is one way of addressing it.

[haematocritical]

I'll be sure to keep the thing we don't have back home in mind for dealing with the issues you say I have. [ he has so many issues ]