audience: astarion

[mygod]

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[haematocritical]

I'm not even sure we have that in Faerun.

[mygod]

It wouldn't be a bad investment. I'd even say your red friend might be good at it.

[haematocritical]

Karlach could charm her way into most people’s hearts. [ he’s not even mocking. ]

[mygod]

That's not entirely the point of therapy, but close enough.

[haematocritical]

I imagine it makes it easier?

[mygod]

Your therapist isn't meant to be your friend. They're supposed to fix you.

[ shrugs ]

I do not know enough about her to determine if she'd fully fit the bill.

[haematocritical]

I don’t need fixing.

[ he does. ]

But if that’s the standard, I’d have to look for you therapist person somewhere else. Karlach knows too many things about me.

[mygod]

Uh-huh.

It doesn't matter to me whether you actually seek it out or not. Only that if there are obstacles that persist for you, there is one way of addressing it.

[haematocritical]

I'll be sure to keep the thing we don't have back home in mind for dealing with the issues you say I have. [ he has so many issues ]

[mygod]

What. You are the one who admitted to your annoyance at your own mental blocks.

[haematocritical]

Which I can't fix in the way you're suggesting because it doesn't exist where I'm from? [ i also forgot my own thread thank you cyoa ]

[mygod]

Oh yes, because you were clearly so open-minded to the idea when you called it fake.

[ their expression is hard to read behind the mask, but the eye roll is conveyed easily through their voice ]

It does not matter to me what becomes of you. But if you seek change, being even slightly open to solutions would help.

[haematocritical]

[ just makes an exasperated motion with his hands. ]

Is it available here?

[mygod]

Talking to people is free, though some are obviously less disposed to caretaking than others.

[ famine obviously would rather not ]

[haematocritical]

[ gazes. ]

You made it sound like it was something more official than "talking to a friend". [ karlach is free. she gives hugs. ("nice ones?") it's affection week, so i guess. ]

[mygod]

[ famine could go into more detail about the specifics of therapy and talking and how astarion has all these problems but they settle on, simply: ]

You're a pain in the ass.

[ not very affectionate, famine ]

[haematocritical]

[ not very therapeutic of you. ]

I can’t believe you’re getting pissy with me because I don’t understand something that doesn’t exist where I’m from.

[ huff ]

[mygod]

[ crosses their arms and tilts their head ]

Are you open to an explanation? Or will you call it fake again? I can offer you more information, but if you're going to be a pain about it not existing where you're from and therefore it doesn't matter, I'm walking away.

I don't care to have a conversation that goes in circles, or waste time on something you're talking about just to take up space.

[haematocritical]

[ ugh. ]

Talking about it never exactly helped fix things before.

[ because he has tried! in some rare cases. talking about a few things. ]

[mygod]

Sometimes it is not simply talking.

[ pauses to think about it ]

It is the sharing. Giving your experiences room to breathe, and having another person in the process who will guide you through the mess of your thoughts without judgment.

[haematocritical]

[ honestly he just goes pretty quiet at that.




there's nothing he can think of that makes his skin crawl with vulnerability than, well. that. ]

[mygod]

It need not be something miraculous or a change made overnight. It can take years to heal, and it will be far more troubling than a common physical injury.

But it is based on steps that can be taken each day, if you dare to.

[haematocritical]

... I don't want it to take years. That bastard doesn't get to keep any part of me for years now he's dead.

[mygod]

You'll have some days that are better than others.

But it would be a lie to tell you that one day you wake up and everything is instantly better.

[haematocritical]

[ he genuinely hates this.

just rubs his forehead tiredly. ]