audience: astarion

[mygod]

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[haematocritical]

[ just makes an exasperated motion with his hands. ]

Is it available here?

[mygod]

Talking to people is free, though some are obviously less disposed to caretaking than others.

[ famine obviously would rather not ]

[haematocritical]

[ gazes. ]

You made it sound like it was something more official than "talking to a friend". [ karlach is free. she gives hugs. ("nice ones?") it's affection week, so i guess. ]

[mygod]

[ famine could go into more detail about the specifics of therapy and talking and how astarion has all these problems but they settle on, simply: ]

You're a pain in the ass.

[ not very affectionate, famine ]

[haematocritical]

[ not very therapeutic of you. ]

I can’t believe you’re getting pissy with me because I don’t understand something that doesn’t exist where I’m from.

[ huff ]

[mygod]

[ crosses their arms and tilts their head ]

Are you open to an explanation? Or will you call it fake again? I can offer you more information, but if you're going to be a pain about it not existing where you're from and therefore it doesn't matter, I'm walking away.

I don't care to have a conversation that goes in circles, or waste time on something you're talking about just to take up space.

[haematocritical]

[ ugh. ]

Talking about it never exactly helped fix things before.

[ because he has tried! in some rare cases. talking about a few things. ]

[mygod]

Sometimes it is not simply talking.

[ pauses to think about it ]

It is the sharing. Giving your experiences room to breathe, and having another person in the process who will guide you through the mess of your thoughts without judgment.

[haematocritical]

[ honestly he just goes pretty quiet at that.




there's nothing he can think of that makes his skin crawl with vulnerability than, well. that. ]

[mygod]

It need not be something miraculous or a change made overnight. It can take years to heal, and it will be far more troubling than a common physical injury.

But it is based on steps that can be taken each day, if you dare to.

[haematocritical]

... I don't want it to take years. That bastard doesn't get to keep any part of me for years now he's dead.

[mygod]

You'll have some days that are better than others.

But it would be a lie to tell you that one day you wake up and everything is instantly better.

[haematocritical]

[ he genuinely hates this.

just rubs his forehead tiredly. ]

[mygod]

[ yeah. at least the vibes from famine are a vague sense of understanding ]

You will begin to feel better eventually, as long as you work at it.

But there is an understandable place for frustration in your path.

[haematocritical]

[ he just sighs. ]

... Maybe not in the middle of a cult sacrifice scenario. [ memshare week gets him by the neck. ]

[mygod]

[ shrugs ]

Maybe. Maybe not. It is up to you to determine where and when your progress begins.

[haematocritical]

[ ok that's enough wise famine of the forest for him today. ]

I suppose we'll see when I get forced to acknowledge things or not.

[mygod]

[ shrugs ]

I'd wish you luck if I believed in it.

[haematocritical]

What do you believe in then? [ TOPIC. CHANGE. ]

[mygod]

Reason. Action. Results.

[haematocritical]

[ fun at parties. ]

Yes, that seems about right.

[mygod]

[ sure sometimes

they shrug ]

I don't exist to be entertaining to others. I only seek to keep my word and fulfill my goals.

[haematocritical]

What goals are those, anyway? You're here for a reason, I assume.

[mygod]

Is it too abstract to say that my goal is to find another goal to accomplish?

[ cants head to the side ]

I've completed everything else in the world that I set out to do. I came here in search of something new.

[haematocritical]

[ huh. ]

... Shame. I could've told you cults were a headache a long time ago.