audience: astarion

[mygod]

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[mygod]

[ it is so hard to avoid describing facial expressions because of the mask it's fine ]

A difficult topic to speak on?

[haematocritical]

[ take off the mask.... show facial expressions but also somehow have a face that cannot be seen. become unknowable. ]

...

Yes, something like that. Although it annoys me that it is.

[mygod]

Oh? Don't care to force yourself through it?

[haematocritical]

It annoys me that I’m still bothered by it even after— [ … he huffs.

someone tell this man that trauma takes time because he’s mad it’s not instantly gone. ]

I didn’t push through enough for that bastard to still be snapping at my heels even now. That’s all.

[mygod]

[ hmm ]

Have you considered therapy?

[haematocritical]

[ haha. ]

What?

[mygod]

Discussing your emotions and trauma with a professional third-party that is meant to help you unpack and heal from events in your life.

[haematocritical]

That sounds entirely fake.

[mygod]

Yes, you sound like someone who hasn't been through therapy.

[haematocritical]

I'm not even sure we have that in Faerun.

[mygod]

It wouldn't be a bad investment. I'd even say your red friend might be good at it.

[haematocritical]

Karlach could charm her way into most people’s hearts. [ he’s not even mocking. ]

[mygod]

That's not entirely the point of therapy, but close enough.

[haematocritical]

I imagine it makes it easier?

[mygod]

Your therapist isn't meant to be your friend. They're supposed to fix you.

[ shrugs ]

I do not know enough about her to determine if she'd fully fit the bill.

[haematocritical]

I don’t need fixing.

[ he does. ]

But if that’s the standard, I’d have to look for you therapist person somewhere else. Karlach knows too many things about me.

[mygod]

Uh-huh.

It doesn't matter to me whether you actually seek it out or not. Only that if there are obstacles that persist for you, there is one way of addressing it.

[haematocritical]

I'll be sure to keep the thing we don't have back home in mind for dealing with the issues you say I have. [ he has so many issues ]

[mygod]

What. You are the one who admitted to your annoyance at your own mental blocks.

[haematocritical]

Which I can't fix in the way you're suggesting because it doesn't exist where I'm from? [ i also forgot my own thread thank you cyoa ]

[mygod]

Oh yes, because you were clearly so open-minded to the idea when you called it fake.

[ their expression is hard to read behind the mask, but the eye roll is conveyed easily through their voice ]

It does not matter to me what becomes of you. But if you seek change, being even slightly open to solutions would help.

[haematocritical]

[ just makes an exasperated motion with his hands. ]

Is it available here?

[mygod]

Talking to people is free, though some are obviously less disposed to caretaking than others.

[ famine obviously would rather not ]

[haematocritical]

[ gazes. ]

You made it sound like it was something more official than "talking to a friend". [ karlach is free. she gives hugs. ("nice ones?") it's affection week, so i guess. ]

[mygod]

[ famine could go into more detail about the specifics of therapy and talking and how astarion has all these problems but they settle on, simply: ]

You're a pain in the ass.

[ not very affectionate, famine ]