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[breaks tag order for memshare to replay watching essek get murdered by his possessed partner he knew was possessed and guard dogged all trial up until basically that point

....

yea]

[faithkept]

[LISTEN.]

I hardly think that's "not trying hard enough".

[egodist]

I expected him to be harder to kill...

[ but we love npc death too much ]

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I... I did, as well, but I still... I wasn't watching her closely enough.

...I should have... but I was afraid to kill her and end up unable to find a new partner.

[faithkept]

[He has many feelings about how that whole mess went but he will not burden sweet newly-dead Mathis with them, so he just reaches out to rest a hand on his shoulder.]

You oughtn't hold the full weight of responsibility. The events that unfolded weren't only due to you. Regretting certain actions or inactions may be something that you'll have to carry, and I know this is a difficult ask, for now, but... try to keep it in mind. Even if things didn't go perfectly, you still tried quite hard.

[egodist]

[ scien nods... he agrees with lucas and doesn't bother to reiterate any of those points ]

Besides, you were in a uniquely difficult position as someone whose life was actually attached to her. You had other considerations and weight on you that other people didn't.

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[thinking about how apparently scien fckn dies after this thread later?? god.]

I know, b-but you said... to give an example...

[faithkept]

[AAAAAAAA WHAT IS HAPPENING OUT HERE.]

That illustrates the point, dear... The things you're being very harsh with yourself about aren't exactly your fault. But you've only just been forced to part and in such an unkind way, so I understand that it's going to be difficult to not be harsh with yourself right now... Just try, please, when you're feeling a little less overwhelmed.

[egodist]

[ don't worry about it don't worry about it ]

We were telling you that your example is warped by the weight of emotions and therefore inaccurate.

[ thanks scien ]

You'll get it eventually.

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...m-maybe I will.

[a little shake of his head.]

You're right, that it's... particularly difficult, at the moment.

[faithkept]

No one is expecting you to be able to sort through all of your feelings so quickly. [Unfortunately they're all in hell and have to endgame soon so there's not much time for emotional sorting at all, but they do what they can.]

Just try to be kind when you can. We'll be kind to fill the rest.

[egodist]

[ scien isn't good at being kind, but he doesn't say it out loud and it's mercifully not blasted through thoughtshare ]

You are only one year old.

You will have time to reflect on all your new experiences.

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...r-right.

[a brief thoughtshare of wait, did i tell lucas that part...]

That just may have to come... later.

[...]

Um- speaking of later... do you think there will be a way for you to manage to fix me before we have to leave? Or will that be up to the Scien at home?

[faithkept]

You did, don't worry.

[HE LEARNED SO MUCH AND MATHIS STILL DOESN'T KNOW HE'S BOURREAU. Nodding at that, though. That just may have to come later and that's alright.]

[egodist]

I can do it. I already prepared my lab to work on it when we have time.

Your Scien will need to make sure you age, though. That takes longer. Again, just use everything I told you as a bartering chip. I always repay debts.

[ (threatening) ]

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A-all right. Then, I'll be sure to do that, assuming... everything else happens as it should.

[very relieved emotions.]

Suguru was worried over me not using my wish on myself, even though I told him that I trusted you with that problem...

[faithkept]

I can't say that I blame him.

[Just for being worried in general. Unfortunately he also trusts Scien with many problems.]

[egodist]

I choose to believe that is more about you not using your wish for yourself than any doubt on my ability.

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Most likely... though he doesn't know you very well, s-so...

[it's not his fault. geto is valid.]

...but what have I missed, while you've been here--? Not, um, not in terms of information, I'll catch up on that.

[but how have they been. ESPECIALLY LUCAS. glancing to him:]

Iwatooshi mentioned something about you tending to be in trouble...?

[faithkept]

[DO NOT LOOK AT HIM.]

We all tend to get into a bit of trouble here and there. [He is NOT going to talk to Mathis about how he's killed six people when Mathis has just died, and maybe never, thank you and good night.]

The important information is in the notebooks that Aventurine's been keeping. If you haven't seen it yet, I'll be sure to fetch one for you.

[egodist]

[ scien's not a snitch he's not touching any of this in the slightest ]

It's fine. If either of you get into trouble, I can involve myself more than usual.

[ scien also causes trouble, ]

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I... I'd really rather not cause either of you any trouble to begin with, though...

[he'll be good he promises (smash cut to when he gets killed by pyramid head like everyone else)]

[faithkept]

[So many of their collective asses got pyramid head smoted.]

I think we can all manage to stay out of trouble for a few days.

[THEY CANNOT!]

[egodist]

[ robin's feet did this ]

We'll see how long that lasts.

[ scien is realistic (dies later) ]

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It can't be that difficult, can it...?

[mathis no mathis donttttt]