audience: lucas

[mygod]

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[faithkept]

[Shakespeare would be proud.

His head just cants to the side, like he's considering the question.]

There are quite a few things I'd like to know, really... But I suppose we can start with how you ended up here?

[In a CULT.]

[mygod]

Oh? Would this prove useful to you to know?

Or do you intend to cast judgment upon my answer, determining if it's reasonable or not?

[faithkept]

[He takes a minute to think about how Mathis said Pestilence and Famine didn't seem so bad and :ben:s a bit internally THE AUDACITY OF BEING ACCUSED OF BEING JUDGMENTAL WHEN THIS BOZO SHOWED UP BEING JUDGMENTAL IMMEDIATELY.]

I have no intention of judging- [Unless it is a bad answer.] -but I do feel as though it's important, understanding the answer to that question.

[mygod]

[ lucas like i have no intention of judging unless i DO

but famine pauses, as if trying to figure out how to explain ]

You are a person of faith yourself, are you not? Why?

[faithkept]

[Listen... Sometimes being judgmental is the correct answer. Anyway no one has ever asked him this before so he just blinks, a little surprised.]

It's no different from any other, really. A belief in the teachings and tenets, which I assume is already a departure from your situation, given you've decided to help us. [And then, with a little cant of his head:] You would consider yourself a person of faith?

[The wording could imply as much but he's not a fan. He knows that cults and religions are different thanks to Hawaii.]

[mygod]

No. I'm an atheist.

[ don't worry famine knows it's a fucking cult ]

But you're right that it's a departure. [ they pause to weigh their words ] All the same, I suppose you could say that I am wondering if there is anything worth believing in. You believe in your faith, but I have never felt it at all.

So I followed this thread to answer my curiosity. Even if I do intend to cut it, that is what led me here.

[faithkept]

I see...

[There is something that's a little sad actually about trying to follow a thread to find something worth believing in and just finding a fucking demon goat on the other end. What the hell.]

I'm sorry that your search has led you to such a place. If you have the chance, you should speak with those here about their own beliefs. There's much good to be found in having unwavering faith, and you may be able to find a better answer elsewhere.

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[mygod]

[ i hate this shitpost immediately hangs it up on my fridge

famine stares at lucas as if deliberating something ]

What makes your faith so unwavering? Does the world not give you ample reason to doubt?

[faithkept]

[THE REVOLVING DOOR OF CULTS.

Good thing the Catholic church is not a cult. He just smiles!]

If life were without reason to doubt, there would be no trials of faith. Overcoming the obstacles set before you is precisely what builds strong faith.

[mygod]

And your obstacles are?

[faithkept]

Outside of being kidnapped by a cult?

[mygod]

Outside of that.

Though I do note that your faith does not seem to be saving you here.

[faithkept]

Fortunately, I am apparently very adept at overcoming trials.

[If his PAPER IS ANYTHING TO GO BY.]

Though I must admit, I'm not used to being in a situation where even a simple prayer is intercepted... [GOD IS TALKING TO HIM ABOUT RIVERDALE.]

[mygod]

You did not answer what those trials are. You're very skilled at misdirection. Maybe your profile should've mentioned that.

[faithkept]

[

The look on his face is both gently apologetic and delicately, faintly hurt.]

Have I done something that would lead you to interpret me so uncharitably? It only slipped my mind for a moment, given it's a very typical answer. The same sort of trials any person's faith may be tested by, really.

[mygod]

[ they continue to stare at lucas

who still didn't answer the question ]

[faithkept]

[STOP. He looks faintly troubled and a little discomforted because trials of faith are PRIVATE, but.]

...The death of a parent is a rather common one, and one that I myself have experienced.

[mygod]

[ in response to the discomfort: ] I accept declining to answer, but I'd rather not be tricked into distraction.

Is the death of your parent what led to your faith?

[faithkept]

I ask that you not think so unkindly of me.

[He maintains his innocence your honor, sometimes things slip the mind... He shakes his head, though.]

It was a time that I questioned mine, but not what led to it.

[mygod]

[ a beat ] I believe in earning my kindness. I am not looking for a reason to mistrust you.

[ even though lucas once again just didn't answer the question okay!!!! ]

Are you so averse to discussing the origin of your faith?

[faithkept]

[HE DID ANSWER THE QUESTION THE QUESTION WAS DID THIS LEAD TO YOUR FAITH AND THE ANSWER WAS NO!!!!]

We were discussing trials of faith rather than the crux itself, were we not?

[mygod]

Perhaps, but I will take that as a yes, if you are not volunteering the information.

[ tilts head ]

Were you not just inviting me ask others on their faith? It is difficult to find shared belief this way.

[faithkept]

I'm not averse to it, really.

[He just does not volunteer information in general, which is probably clear based on the way he continues to just leave that statement where it is instead of volunteering information!!!!]

If it's something you're curious to know, we can speak of it...

[Even though he said OTHERS and not LUCAS.]

[mygod]

[ lucas has now trapped himself into this conversation about his totally normal catholic tradition

then plainly: ] I am curious to know you.

The origin of your faith, what shakes it, what unmakes it.

[ a pause, thoughtful ]

You shared what prompted you to question it, but I cannot question something that I have never known. The only force I have ever believed in was and is myself. So how is it that you've found and adopted something into yourself that relies on a force outside of your own power?

[faithkept]

[

The way his expression doesn't change but his body language does in tiny and barely noticeable ways that SPEAK TO HIS RAPIDLY INCREASING LEVELS OF DISCOMFORT. He regrets saying ANYTHING ACTUALLY!! Lightly:]

I believe you're requesting an examination rather than a conversation at that point.

[The actual question at hand, though, he'll ponder over for a moment or two, folding his arms daintily across his middle as he thinks.]

...I suppose the simplest answer is, there are some things that one can't manage through the force of their own power.