[ he goes ow though entirely out of habit and not because it actually hurts. ]
Once it has nothing to consume, either through my death or because I chose to trigger the events it will destabilize. I have no access to my magic here, so there will be no self-inflicted ... erm, letting go, so to speak.
I think the warning is important. It will explode - violently. Please know if I die, you must either resurrect me or discard of the body within three or so days, or it may prevent a danger to everyone present.
[ as in. he is already dead. demise, past tense. ]
Of course it is. But I don't-- [ hrm. ] I don't see much point in acting as I do otherwise. Crawling into bed and never emerging again wouldn't be helpful, would it?
[ if anything he's too bi. get back in the closet partway. ]
I tried that tactic already. Locking myself away and awaiting the end until I could not wait any longer. I planned for a very long time that I would research what I could, then upon the moment I was no longer able to fend it off I would strike out for the Underdark and find an unpopulated corner in which to ... assure the blast would harm no one. I left my tower, I left Tara and my Mother with no word on where I was going, and then barely the moment I stepped outside my door I was kidnapped by illithids.
Then upon my second attempt, this time following the directive of Mystra and using the orb to try to destroy the Absolute, I found myself here. Reconstituted and orb intact. I suppose if that is not a sign at least a part of me wants to fight to live, then I do not know what is.
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[ that's all she says for a moment before she just reaches over towards him and gently pokes that same spot. ]
And what will be left of you once it finishes?
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Once it has nothing to consume, either through my death or because I chose to trigger the events it will destabilize. I have no access to my magic here, so there will be no self-inflicted ... erm, letting go, so to speak.
I think the warning is important. It will explode - violently. Please know if I die, you must either resurrect me or discard of the body within three or so days, or it may prevent a danger to everyone present.
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but also NOT THE BODY BOMB why are the baldurs so worrisome ]
You're very calm about talking about your upcoming demise, Gale.
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You can remove the word upcoming.
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[ sowwy!! ]
... isn't it scary?
[ the icon doesn't match this last part but i'm not changing it ]
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[ as in. he is already dead. demise, past tense. ]
Of course it is. But I don't-- [ hrm. ] I don't see much point in acting as I do otherwise. Crawling into bed and never emerging again wouldn't be helpful, would it?
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[ of the bed. not the closet. ]
But what about when you're alone?
cw: description of suicide
I tried that tactic already. Locking myself away and awaiting the end until I could not wait any longer. I planned for a very long time that I would research what I could, then upon the moment I was no longer able to fend it off I would strike out for the Underdark and find an unpopulated corner in which to ... assure the blast would harm no one. I left my tower, I left Tara and my Mother with no word on where I was going, and then barely the moment I stepped outside my door I was kidnapped by illithids.
Then upon my second attempt, this time following the directive of Mystra and using the orb to try to destroy the Absolute, I found myself here. Reconstituted and orb intact. I suppose if that is not a sign at least a part of me wants to fight to live, then I do not know what is.
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but she listens to the story. ]
Even if it's not a sign, there's nothing to stop you from seeing it as one. Even the littlest of things can be enough to make one keep trying.