audience: lucas

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[egodist]

[ HIS LUCAAAAAS

anyway he's just going to look at his eyes FILLED WITH HOPE AND OPTIMISM. did he take his fucking drug yet aki ]

[faithkept]

[NO HE DIDN'T THAT'S GOING TO BE A TRAUMA RESPONSE TO THESE 12 HOURS YIPPIE. So for now his eyes are normal and beautiful and filled with hope and optimism.

He just cants his head to the side like ???? he still has no idea what's going on but he's happy to be here.]

[egodist]

[ alright well if his eyes aren't dilated then that's one thing. scien knows he hasn't taken his drugs in the past two days.

but: ]

Do you have the medicine I gave you.

[faithkept]

I do, yes!

[He still has not taken it but the plus side of this good mood is that he will now! Just in time to set himself back god.]

[egodist]

[ yea

plainly: ]

Take one.

[ it's literally one step forward one step back but it's better thaN JUST THE STEP BACK,, ]

If you find it agreeable and not poison, continue to take it.

[faithkept]

[AGREEABLE AND NOT POISON well it won't be poison and it will give him lovely dreamless sleep which will be the last peace he knows for a while, but jury's out on whether or not he'll be in a state to take it later. GOD.]

Alright. Shall I take it now?

[egodist]

Yes.

[ sighs ]

If you find it disagreeable, you have permission to come back and kill me.

[faithkept]

I can't kill you if I can't touch you!

[DON'T SAY THAT CHEERFULLY.]

But is that all for today, then?

[egodist]

I am telling you that if you can manage it, and if you find that I have deceived you, I will allow it.

[ sometimes you don't care if one guy in particular kills you ]

Are you still trying to run?

[faithkept]

Oh, I'd really rather not kill anyone else, though...

[HE STILL SAYS THIS CHEERFULLY. And then, back to the cheerful confusion:]

But you hate speaking to me like this?

[egodist]

I do. [ frowning ] But I would rather endure you cursed and brainwashed and whatever else than know that you're suffering somewhere alone.

[ and this has this. insanely high chance of turning into suffering in a short while

speaking of which, his voice takes on a more serious tone, even though he doesn't know how much of this will land: ]

... and I know that you don't want to kill anyone else. It's why I need you to get better.

[faithkept]

[HAHA......... :TEARS: It's fine. Lucas will immediately flee the second this wears off and he realizes what's been happening but for now he's just vibin, having a great time, even if they're now talking seriously.]

Well! If you decide you're done enduring me, just let me know. I believe they're still eating waffles out there? [He will go rejoin the party that he wandered away from for some reason.]

I do feel much better, though!

[egodist]

[ sighs ]

I will never be done enduring you.

[ this is his lot in life? looking after his stupid dog? ]

You're cursed. [ brow furrows ] And it is not your fault that you have been.

[faithkept]

[HIS STUPID DOG WHO TRULY KEEPS GETTING PUNCHED BY FATE OVER AND OVER.]

I see! [Does he.] And I believe Pickles said something about that earlier? [PICKLES WHO FUCKING LIED. Jury's out on whether or not he believes he's been cursed anyway but it's fine because he'd be happy about it regardless!! OH PICKLES.] He's such a darling, so sweet.

[egodist]

He is a good dog.

[ UNLIKE SCIEN'S STUPID DOG but it's fine.... it's so fine....

but scien pauses, wondering what topic would be safer to cross with lucas like this. or which one might guilt him into survival. ]

Would you get Nadia a dog or a cat in the future?

[faithkept]

[HE IS A GOOD DOG!!!! Lucas loves Pickles, he totes him around like he's a baby even though he's 40-something pounds. BEAMING.

ALSO STOP HE'S SO RESIGNED TO SURVIVAL BECAUSE HE REFUSES TO LEAVE NADIA BEHIND he's just luxuriating in torment on the way there.]

Oh, she would love either, I think! But she was so fond of those kittens we watched over that night, years ago. I think a cat would suit her well.

[A ragdoll cat that loves to be held...]

[egodist]

Oh? I don't know this one.

[ he knows his proust lore well but apparently not enough ]

Where did you find the kittens?

[faithkept]

[THE LORE THAT I HAD TO MAKE UP ON THE SPOT FOR SOME REASON I ALREADY FORGOT]

They somehow managed to find their way in through the window one night. It was the most adorable thing! She woke up covered in kittens, with the mother sleeping over her head like a little bread roll.

[egodist]

[ ME SHAKING BC I REALLY THOUGHT SCIEN MIGHT JUST NOT KNOW THIS ONE. OKAY

he laughs at that, unfortunately. he's annoyed, but he can imagine it and he does like nadia!! ]

They must've covered her in a little kitten blanket easily.

[faithkept]

[THIS IS SO FUNNY HELPPPPP ME JUST SNIPING US BOTH.]

They did! She was so darling. It was difficult for her, having to part with them later, but there's no feasible way to keep cats in a hospital and I can't care for animals, myself, as you well know.

[On account of being gone all the time teaching and murdering.]

[egodist]

[ looks thoughtful ]

The you that I know has a bit more time for it. It wouldn't be bad for you to take on a hobby.

[ a note to discuss with lucas' therapist ]

[faithkept]

[SCIEN JUST COMING BACK TO LE SALUT LIKE HEY GET A CAT AND A HOBBY.]

Oh! Ah, right, I suppose that would be the case...? [If his job is apparently BODYGUARDING his MORTAL ENEMY who he is still so brainwashed about but now only feels happiness and cheer for! Yippie!]

What a strange thing to think about, still! I wonder if that version of myself would prefer caring for a cat or a dog.

[egodist]

You don't need to talk about him like he's a different entity from you. I found him in not too different of a state than you're in now—minus the random curses to improve your mood.

[ but being brainwashed to all hell and searching for anything that could save his future with nadia is familiar ]

Which do you prefer now? Between cats and dogs.

[ scien assumes it's cats but who knows ]

[faithkept]

Oh, dear.

[HE SAYS MILDLY, BECAUSE HE'S LIKE WHY AM I BOURREAU IN EVERY REALITY ANYWAY ACTUALLY, BUT UNFORTUNATELY HE DOESN'T HAVE THE EMOTIONAL CAPACITY TO PROCESS THIS RIGHT NOW.

Anyway Scien is right!]

I think I'd prefer to care for a cat. The ones at the barn were quite nice.

[egodist]

[ brow furrows ]

Does the idea of being similar concern you?

[ but, ]

That doesn't surprise me. You treated them very warmly.