audience: ashlyn

[mygod]

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[killies]

... Me either.

[ it's a little reassuring to have someone reaffirm that things could (somehow) be worse, and aren't. even if they're still bad. ]

So it's like a mercy, right? To kill them when they've lost themselves.

[mygod]

I would say so.

Keeping someone alive is not always the same thing as saving them.

[ especially in cases of insane monster possession ]

[killies]

What if you knew that someone was going to lose themself, but hadn't yet? I don't mean like how Boothill kind of snapped out of it for a bit, but like if you knew what was going to happen to him in advance.

What would you do then?

[mygod]

I'd ask them what they want. I do not see any reason to prematurely give up on someone, but they also ought to know that chances are very high that they will kill people even with every effort made to stop them.

But it can be the last offering made to their dignity, if they would like to choose the way their life ends.

[killies]

What if it was the other way around?

If someone told you that you were going to lose yourself, would you believe them? What would you ask them to do?

[mygod]

[ famine's words come rather quickly, as if the decision for them is natural ]

I would weigh the words depending on who is telling me. Should I believe them, I would give them a deadline—if I have not found a way to save myself by this time, kill me before I can harm another.

Being trapped in my own violent mind and so strong that I cannot be freed is the antithesis of the person I am.

[killies]

[ ... hmm. that's a logical and reasonable answer. much to think about. ]

But you guys are safe from what the cult is doing to us, right? Since you're part of the cult.

[mygod]

[ nods ]

We were not summoned here the way you were. We all came of our own volition, in different circumstances.

So we do not have monsters inside of us the way that you all do.

[killies]

Good.

[ kind of. ]

Oh. Can you tell how many people have found their partners? Or is that something you're not sure of?

[mygod]

[ shakes head ]

While we know, it is not something that you need to be made aware of.

[killies]

I was just curious anyway. [ so that's fine. ]

You probably can't give me a spread of what powers are out there, either?

[mygod]

[ shakes head ]

It would reveal too much about people, and I'd rather not boil them.

[killies]

That's fair...

[mygod]

Curiosity in and of itself is not a terrible trait, though.

[ this is

like

a side step to the left of praise ]

[killies]

[ heh ]

So you know who my partner is then, right?

[mygod]

[ nods ]

I do. Would you like to receive a hint?

[killies]

Sure.

[mygod]

[ looks thoughtful ]

... then I would say that your partner is one of those endlessly optimistic types.

[killies]

Unlucky.

[ actually. hold on. ]

Wait, always? Or just currently?

[mygod]

Their personality is more predisposed to it than others.

I cannot give you more than that.

[killies]

There are a lot of people here like that...

[mygod]

It is meant to be a hint, not an answer.

But you can narrow them down. If you still need another hint next week, you may return for one.

[killies]

It's still mostly curiosity, so I'll check in again next week.

[ which means she won't be doing too much searching outside of hints. for now. y...ay... ]

Uh. Thanks.

[mygod]

[ nods ]

It is not something you need to thank me for. I'll at least complete my responsibilities.

[ and avoid the socializing part ]

[killies]

... I'd rather you know I appreciate it than think we don't realize the risks you're taking for us.