Scien, I've been - right before I got here, I accepted I was dead. I was good with it. Made peace with it. And then I got here and there's a magic solution, yeah, when there wasn't before. It's weirdly hard to grab onto.
I don't understand that. [ he's so direct ] You are a person who loves living and being surrounded by others. I'm surprised that you of all people would manage to find acceptance of the end...
[ compared to someone like scien who doesn't have nearly as many attachments, and mostly just lives because it is more convenient than dying ]
scien looks surprised by this—and there's his own flicker of annoyance. it's normally hard to get to him but.
. . . it is monday. and he does know which monster gets summoned. he was just hoping for a 50/50 chance that it wouldn't be like this. for once, he finds himself hoping that he's just being too much of an asshole, and this is karlach finally hitting her limit with him. ]
Not exactly... More like, I prefer learning what types of puzzles exist in the world. I only know jigsaw puzzles. Little pieces that slot together to make a picture.... but even those were foreign in my country until recently.
The universe is pretty vast. There's a lot to see.
[ and, at heart, he is an innately curious person... though he's also an introvert so sometimes he'd just like to look at all these sights by himself or with a trusted person. right now is the latter ]
Only what we've been shown in these rotating locations... They're not bad. I like the new things. The odd tree from last week. Different types of fruit. [ he's probably never seen a watermelon or a mango ] Mountains. Even if all this doesn't feel like someplace that I would choose to be...
[it really is something else, he'll be regretting that when he has to deal with dirt and medieval living conditions
she pulls him all the way to the very end of the boardwalk - stands, looking out into the ocean, still holding his hand. and when he asks her that, she glances at him with a little half-grin.]
Once, huh.
[she repeats. she's not exactly sure what's happening to her yet, it's still early. but she's not an idiot. she's a little scared.]
Yeah, I think so. I have to save the Gate, still. I don't know if it'll still feel like home, but I owe it that much.
I mean, I was there. Before all this. But all the things that made it home are gone. Mum, dad, Gortash, my friends. My job, my - fucking sense of wonder, I guess.
... Well, no. That's still there. Despite everything.
... that sense does find a way to linger, through everything.
[ because scien's not entirely different. he'd lost his family, friends, and drive a while ago. curiosity is the only thing that actively remains, alongside his bad attitude ]
Would you leave it to go somewhere else, once you're done saving it?
Maybe, yeah. Hadn't really thought about it. [in the future in a universe somewhere out there, she sits down at the edge of a dock just like this one and says goodbye to the sun, to the ocean. burns out for the last time.
but, now...]
She hasn't got hold on me. Zariel. The deal she made was with Gortash, not me. So she can't drag me under again.
I could go see Waterdeep, maybe, if Gale would have me.
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but also. help. ]
... what a criss-cross.
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... But I think we can make it work? I just... I don't know what to think about it.
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You don't know what to think about having the rest of your life as yours?
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[she says, and then kind of just laughs.]
Scien, I've been - right before I got here, I accepted I was dead. I was good with it. Made peace with it. And then I got here and there's a magic solution, yeah, when there wasn't before. It's weirdly hard to grab onto.
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[ compared to someone like scien who doesn't have nearly as many attachments, and mostly just lives because it is more convenient than dying ]
This does not need to be a false hope.
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[not to mention the nature of her canon point means she didn't have time to explore other avenues,]
Maybe I will. Just seems sort of silly to fix my engine and waste a wish when there's the constant threat of waking up dead every Friday.
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[ he doesn't need to be this blunt but here we are ]
It's not like you'll be able to use the wish to interfere with the ritual, so utilizing it for personal goals is the most reasonable course of action.
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I don't want to talk about this. [rougher, than normal.] So maybe let's talk about something else.
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scien looks surprised by this—and there's his own flicker of annoyance. it's normally hard to get to him but.
. . . it is monday. and he does know which monster gets summoned. he was just hoping for a 50/50 chance that it wouldn't be like this. for once, he finds himself hoping that he's just being too much of an asshole, and this is karlach finally hitting her limit with him. ]
.... pick a topic.
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she struggles, for a second.]
... You said you liked puzzles. [are they still holding hands... if they are she's going to gently tug him again, so they can keep walking.]
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... I do. Jigsaw puzzles. Though the new ones I find across worlds are good, too.
[ enrichment ]
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[off they go - she just wants to walk around the boardwalk, for now. shake off the jitters.]
Wait, what, so you just stick your hand in other worlds and grab puzzles? Is that what you're saying?
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The universe is pretty vast. There's a lot to see.
[ and, at heart, he is an innately curious person... though he's also an introvert so sometimes he'd just like to look at all these sights by himself or with a trusted person. right now is the latter ]
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That feels like a very you answer, honestly. [what she sees him as, anyway.] Have you seen a lot? What's your favorite thing you've seen?
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Only what we've been shown in these rotating locations... They're not bad. I like the new things. The odd tree from last week. Different types of fruit. [ he's probably never seen a watermelon or a mango ] Mountains. Even if all this doesn't feel like someplace that I would choose to be...
[ a gesture to the area around them ]
I like seeing it at least once.
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Maybe you'd hate it, but I'd like to show you Faerun. Somehow.
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[ plain and simple
scien's favoritism really is something else ]
Will you be going back once you survive all this cult nonsense?
[ once. not if. even if she might be a monster. "how is that gonna work, scien" listen it'll be fine trust ]
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she pulls him all the way to the very end of the boardwalk - stands, looking out into the ocean, still holding his hand. and when he asks her that, she glances at him with a little half-grin.]
Once, huh.
[she repeats. she's not exactly sure what's happening to her yet, it's still early. but she's not an idiot. she's a little scared.]
Yeah, I think so. I have to save the Gate, still. I don't know if it'll still feel like home, but I owe it that much.
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anyway he'll confirm with all his terrible confidence: ] Once.
[ he tilts his head at her explanation, curious. ]
I suppose if you believe that's what you're bound to, it makes sense to see things through.
Why would it no longer feel like home?
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[she looks back out at the ocean.]
I mean, I was there. Before all this. But all the things that made it home are gone. Mum, dad, Gortash, my friends. My job, my - fucking sense of wonder, I guess.
... Well, no. That's still there. Despite everything.
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[ because scien's not entirely different. he'd lost his family, friends, and drive a while ago. curiosity is the only thing that actively remains, alongside his bad attitude ]
Would you leave it to go somewhere else, once you're done saving it?
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the question gets her to tilt her head back.]
Maybe, yeah. Hadn't really thought about it. [in the future in a universe somewhere out there, she sits down at the edge of a dock just like this one and says goodbye to the sun, to the ocean. burns out for the last time.
but, now...]
She hasn't got hold on me. Zariel. The deal she made was with Gortash, not me. So she can't drag me under again.
I could go see Waterdeep, maybe, if Gale would have me.
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at that last comment he looks at her like she's a fucking idiot (affectionate) ]
What do you mean 'if he would have you'. In what universe would he ever turn you away.
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he's right she is a fucking idiot (affectionate)]
I don't know! Maybe he's got Astarion over or something.
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