Think six weeks in, we're out of time to hope for a secret other way around it. [ well. there's the camille thing, but killing them to bring them back when they need to die more in the first place seems.........stupid.
there's a kind of torn feeling at that ]
They'd get hurt no matter what. Least this way there's a goal behind it.
[ us in modchat like why is every graveyard blonde so not okay. anyway it would be very fascinating to use revival items at this point. the absolute favoritism involved would be so interesting. ]
Does having a purpose make it better? I suppose it would...
What, for the wish? Never trusted any of it. [ very simple answer. i mean he did die week 2 so like. that is part of that. ] Anything that seems too good to be true usually is.
[ also he doesnt know aerith is dead still so like. that was a big part of not being tempted. but. ]
[ CLOUD YOUR FUCKING BRAIN SOUP!!!!! nehan's emotions are a little ??? because of what he knows by now about aerith, but like. not his business to disclose her shit. ]
Usually, yes. But most people would be tempted all the same.
That's why this god is being summoned in the first place. For the sake of something like a wish.
...Shinra is the organization you're trying to take down now? [ him sorting through his conversations with aerith and trying to remember the ff7 canon-specific jargon ]
Electric power company, technically. [ but he inclines his head as a sort of. yeah! that's right! FUCK SHINRA moment ] We've got Sephiroth to worry about before anything else, but Shinra's the other main problem to deal with.
[ cloud says this and nehan assumes he means like. he has an organization. maybe an airship full of 400 gacha units that are all insanely special and powerful. not half a dozen people and one cid. ]
...It's good to have people to rely on. What do you figure your chances are?
Those incentives—the ones at the swamp. You could just tell someone to kill for those and solve at least one of your problems. You know they have to get over here anyway. And along the way, any of you could've taken one life to save hundreds, or someone important to you, or for wealth... anything.
[ but no, it's just been lucas. ]
You rush into burning buildings. You fight to save an otherwise dying world with conviction. Everyone here has some level of goodness they want to achieve. Some level of humanity they aren't willing to discard. It's soft.
[ he's not disdainful when he says it, just observing. ]
I did expect people to go for those more than they did. But... I guess they were skeptical. If they want the prize for doing what they have to, they'll go ahead and do it. They don't need me to push an incentive.
[ he can admit he was a pessimist about it. and then it was only lucas. cloud was also skeptical and died week 2 he has that excuse. for the other rest, the feeling is just uncomfortable. ]
in any case, nehan has plenty of his own mental health issues, but he's not insane, so this is a strange one to digest. the deeply blurred lines between reality and fiction, a madman he's heard mention of and now seen, the promise of being overtaken with rage when cloud presents himself as cool and aloof. he emerges from the memory with a blink, looking at cloud carefully for a reaction, speaking quietly. ]
...I think we all have lines we're afraid to cross, yes.
[ it's like that because cloud is the protagonist of a gothic romance novel and sephiroth is the love interest and cloud really wants to be in a different genre
haha wow he hates that memory!!!! he hates it a lot because he is still not sure how much of it was real. thank you being insane. it's great. ]
... Not wrong there.
[ the feeling here is just UNCOMFORTABLE and there's like. lingering fear and anger. sometimes you are goddamn terrified of the monster stalking you even though you also want to go stabbity stab on him every day of your life ]
nehan pauses, not usually one to respect personal conversational boundaries, but he still has to just figure out what he's looking at. there's so much crossing the boundary of delusion and reality here. ]
...That's the man you're trying to be rid of? [ HE LIVES IN YOUR FUCKING HEAD? HAVE YOU TRIED KILLING HIM WITH ZOLOFT? ]
[ IVE GOT NOTHING TO SAY TO THAT HE IS SO DESPERATE FOR CLOUD there's actually a very funny scene where cloud turns away from him to look at aerith and seph is SO MAD anyway ]
Yeah. [ yeah seems a very. simple way to say it. ] ... We've been trying to catch up to him this whole time.
[ 1) he doesn't know what zoloft is :( 2) can you imagine if therapy got rid of sephiroth ]
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Think six weeks in, we're out of time to hope for a secret other way around it. [ well. there's the camille thing, but killing them to bring them back when they need to die more in the first place seems.........stupid.
there's a kind of torn feeling at that ]
They'd get hurt no matter what. Least this way there's a goal behind it.
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Does having a purpose make it better? I suppose it would...
[ better than utter senselessness. ]
What is your goal here?
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Same as it's been from the start. Making sure the cult doesn't get what it wants.
[ a god. 40 dead sacrifices. etc etc. he also wants to go home but murder is maybe? not conducive to that by itself. ]
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...You never tried to get anything out of this? Didn't look for your partner?
[ never considered the incentives? ]
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What, for the wish? Never trusted any of it. [ very simple answer. i mean he did die week 2 so like. that is part of that. ] Anything that seems too good to be true usually is.
[ also he doesnt know aerith is dead still so like. that was a big part of not being tempted. but. ]
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Usually, yes. But most people would be tempted all the same.
That's why this god is being summoned in the first place. For the sake of something like a wish.
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Yeah, I heard about that. [ shakes his head ] I get why people would be tempted. But I didn't want to tie my life to anybody else's.
[ and then it was daan so that was funny ]
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And what if you didn't have to? You wouldn't do something like join a cult for the possibility of getting what you want?
[ just fun little hypothetical questions in this scaresco tonight ]
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... Been there, done that. Shinra's military isn't that far removed from a cult anyway.
[ disparaging. to himself and shinra both. "would cloud join a cult to revive aerith" let's not go int othis ]
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...Shinra is the organization you're trying to take down now? [ him sorting through his conversations with aerith and trying to remember the ff7 canon-specific jargon ]
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Electric power company, technically. [ but he inclines his head as a sort of. yeah! that's right! FUCK SHINRA moment ] We've got Sephiroth to worry about before anything else, but Shinra's the other main problem to deal with.
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Ah. Right. The lunatic. [ truly getting ff7 lore is like what is this dude so crazy for ] Sounds like you've both got your hands full.
[ amongst other issues. ]
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... Yeah. But we've got help dealing with it.
[ A WHOLE SIX OTHER PEOPLE. AND ALSO CID ]
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...It's good to have people to rely on. What do you figure your chances are?
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It's not about chances. [ DETERMINATION mood ] If we don't succeed, the planet won't survive it. I'm not letting that happen.
[ i look at his current canonpoint. i look away ]
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a little blip of amusement. ]
...All right, hero. [ teasing. sorry again about your complex. ] So many of you are softer than you look.
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[ stop leave his failed hero complex alone. he's not soft!! he's so tough!!!! wow!!! <= the softest boy ]
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Those incentives—the ones at the swamp. You could just tell someone to kill for those and solve at least one of your problems. You know they have to get over here anyway. And along the way, any of you could've taken one life to save hundreds, or someone important to you, or for wealth... anything.
[ but no, it's just been lucas. ]
You rush into burning buildings. You fight to save an otherwise dying world with conviction. Everyone here has some level of goodness they want to achieve. Some level of humanity they aren't willing to discard. It's soft.
[ he's not disdainful when he says it, just observing. ]
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[ he can admit he was a pessimist about it. and then it was only lucas. cloud was also skeptical and died week 2 he has that excuse. for the other rest, the feeling is just uncomfortable. ]
... Humanity, huh. You think it's that simple?
[ remember when you wanted a memshare whee ]
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in any case, nehan has plenty of his own mental health issues, but he's not insane, so this is a strange one to digest. the deeply blurred lines between reality and fiction, a madman he's heard mention of and now seen, the promise of being overtaken with rage when cloud presents himself as cool and aloof. he emerges from the memory with a blink, looking at cloud carefully for a reaction, speaking quietly. ]
...I think we all have lines we're afraid to cross, yes.
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haha wow he hates that memory!!!! he hates it a lot because he is still not sure how much of it was real. thank you being insane. it's great. ]
... Not wrong there.
[ the feeling here is just UNCOMFORTABLE and there's like. lingering fear and anger. sometimes you are goddamn terrified of the monster stalking you even though you also want to go stabbity stab on him every day of your life ]
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nehan pauses, not usually one to respect personal conversational boundaries, but he still has to just figure out what he's looking at. there's so much crossing the boundary of delusion and reality here. ]
...That's the man you're trying to be rid of? [ HE LIVES IN YOUR FUCKING HEAD? HAVE YOU TRIED KILLING HIM WITH ZOLOFT? ]
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Yeah. [ yeah seems a very. simple way to say it. ] ... We've been trying to catch up to him this whole time.
[ 1) he doesn't know what zoloft is :( 2) can you imagine if therapy got rid of sephiroth ]
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even now he kind of does think this. very faint brow raise. ]
...He's the one who seems to be chasing you.
[ i think cloud should try a therapy ]