Those incentives—the ones at the swamp. You could just tell someone to kill for those and solve at least one of your problems. You know they have to get over here anyway. And along the way, any of you could've taken one life to save hundreds, or someone important to you, or for wealth... anything.
[ but no, it's just been lucas. ]
You rush into burning buildings. You fight to save an otherwise dying world with conviction. Everyone here has some level of goodness they want to achieve. Some level of humanity they aren't willing to discard. It's soft.
[ he's not disdainful when he says it, just observing. ]
I did expect people to go for those more than they did. But... I guess they were skeptical. If they want the prize for doing what they have to, they'll go ahead and do it. They don't need me to push an incentive.
[ he can admit he was a pessimist about it. and then it was only lucas. cloud was also skeptical and died week 2 he has that excuse. for the other rest, the feeling is just uncomfortable. ]
in any case, nehan has plenty of his own mental health issues, but he's not insane, so this is a strange one to digest. the deeply blurred lines between reality and fiction, a madman he's heard mention of and now seen, the promise of being overtaken with rage when cloud presents himself as cool and aloof. he emerges from the memory with a blink, looking at cloud carefully for a reaction, speaking quietly. ]
...I think we all have lines we're afraid to cross, yes.
[ it's like that because cloud is the protagonist of a gothic romance novel and sephiroth is the love interest and cloud really wants to be in a different genre
haha wow he hates that memory!!!! he hates it a lot because he is still not sure how much of it was real. thank you being insane. it's great. ]
... Not wrong there.
[ the feeling here is just UNCOMFORTABLE and there's like. lingering fear and anger. sometimes you are goddamn terrified of the monster stalking you even though you also want to go stabbity stab on him every day of your life ]
nehan pauses, not usually one to respect personal conversational boundaries, but he still has to just figure out what he's looking at. there's so much crossing the boundary of delusion and reality here. ]
...That's the man you're trying to be rid of? [ HE LIVES IN YOUR FUCKING HEAD? HAVE YOU TRIED KILLING HIM WITH ZOLOFT? ]
[ IVE GOT NOTHING TO SAY TO THAT HE IS SO DESPERATE FOR CLOUD there's actually a very funny scene where cloud turns away from him to look at aerith and seph is SO MAD anyway ]
Yeah. [ yeah seems a very. simple way to say it. ] ... We've been trying to catch up to him this whole time.
[ 1) he doesn't know what zoloft is :( 2) can you imagine if therapy got rid of sephiroth ]
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It's not about chances. [ DETERMINATION mood ] If we don't succeed, the planet won't survive it. I'm not letting that happen.
[ i look at his current canonpoint. i look away ]
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a little blip of amusement. ]
...All right, hero. [ teasing. sorry again about your complex. ] So many of you are softer than you look.
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[ stop leave his failed hero complex alone. he's not soft!! he's so tough!!!! wow!!! <= the softest boy ]
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Those incentives—the ones at the swamp. You could just tell someone to kill for those and solve at least one of your problems. You know they have to get over here anyway. And along the way, any of you could've taken one life to save hundreds, or someone important to you, or for wealth... anything.
[ but no, it's just been lucas. ]
You rush into burning buildings. You fight to save an otherwise dying world with conviction. Everyone here has some level of goodness they want to achieve. Some level of humanity they aren't willing to discard. It's soft.
[ he's not disdainful when he says it, just observing. ]
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[ he can admit he was a pessimist about it. and then it was only lucas. cloud was also skeptical and died week 2 he has that excuse. for the other rest, the feeling is just uncomfortable. ]
... Humanity, huh. You think it's that simple?
[ remember when you wanted a memshare whee ]
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in any case, nehan has plenty of his own mental health issues, but he's not insane, so this is a strange one to digest. the deeply blurred lines between reality and fiction, a madman he's heard mention of and now seen, the promise of being overtaken with rage when cloud presents himself as cool and aloof. he emerges from the memory with a blink, looking at cloud carefully for a reaction, speaking quietly. ]
...I think we all have lines we're afraid to cross, yes.
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haha wow he hates that memory!!!! he hates it a lot because he is still not sure how much of it was real. thank you being insane. it's great. ]
... Not wrong there.
[ the feeling here is just UNCOMFORTABLE and there's like. lingering fear and anger. sometimes you are goddamn terrified of the monster stalking you even though you also want to go stabbity stab on him every day of your life ]
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nehan pauses, not usually one to respect personal conversational boundaries, but he still has to just figure out what he's looking at. there's so much crossing the boundary of delusion and reality here. ]
...That's the man you're trying to be rid of? [ HE LIVES IN YOUR FUCKING HEAD? HAVE YOU TRIED KILLING HIM WITH ZOLOFT? ]
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Yeah. [ yeah seems a very. simple way to say it. ] ... We've been trying to catch up to him this whole time.
[ 1) he doesn't know what zoloft is :( 2) can you imagine if therapy got rid of sephiroth ]
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even now he kind of does think this. very faint brow raise. ]
...He's the one who seems to be chasing you.
[ i think cloud should try a therapy ]