... I guess. [ dana you have no idea how toxic this yaoi is. i shouldve given you the memshare where sephiroth hugs him. but hes frowning because he does not want to be seeing sephiroths thank you ] It's... things he's said before. Or implied.
After, yeah. [ remember is a strong word but he'll let that go. the question just. makes him frown ] Brainwashing?
[ excuse you just because sephiroth likes to call him his puppet. no he's like thinking of the logistics before dismissing it with a shake of his head. if it was brainwashing sephiroth is real bad at it cloud has stabbed him so many times ]
I don't even know if illness is the right word. It's ... a side effect from the enhancements I got in the military.
I've heard that doctor line before. [ he. does not deny he is untrusting because of military experimentation, even if he is not entirely certain that is what it is. ] It's degradation of the cells, I don't know why you'd need a brain scan for that.
[ <= didnt go to med school. or any school. but also his brain is fine wow
Whoever told it to you before lied, but I'm not here to convince you to let me treat you.
[ THE ARROGANCE but it's ok bc famine actually cares about patient consent ]
I don't think you know enough about your brain to be able to say. However when it comes to not being able to make sense of your memory, critical thinking, decision making, or motor skills—looking at the brain is often attached.
[ it is about famine because famine is the one offering it, wow!!! look at his logic, flawless ]
That's not what I said. [ does he think there is actually a possible fix? not... really. the party is kind of working on living in denial about it happening to cloud so thinking about a fix is also not something he does much. ] But it's not like brain scans or blood tests are things that don't exist back home. No one's found anything.
They've looked at others who've got the same thing. [ that. that is a no on the doctors he trusts thing, which again isn't that he wouldn't bring someone else to a doctor. he just. cannot. ]
[ scien looking at the mixture of weird science magic and alien genes that make up the make believe surgery they do to soldier just: who did this. fucked up ]
You're right there. Not into being someone's lab rat.
Most people aren't. I'm more shocked when people do volunteer for clinical trials, but I assume it comes with some level of desperation. Or a savior complex.
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And they linger with you, to the point that your body listens before your mind?
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... I don't think my mind was present at all. I just... blank out.
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... but you clearly still remember. And you're certain this is part of an illness? Not systematic brainwashing over a period of time?
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[ excuse you just because sephiroth likes to call him his puppet. no he's like thinking of the logistics before dismissing it with a shake of his head. if it was brainwashing sephiroth is real bad at it cloud has stabbed him so many times ]
I don't even know if illness is the right word. It's ... a side effect from the enhancements I got in the military.
[ he took radiation steroids ]
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[ and they bring their hand up to their chin, curious ]
And you would decline a brain scan? Or looking to see if this side effect could be managed?
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From you? Pass.
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Not necessarily from me, though you won't be able to find a better doctor.
If it is a result of military experimentation, it is understandable that you are untrusting.
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I've heard that doctor line before. [ he. does not deny he is untrusting because of military experimentation, even if he is not entirely certain that is what it is. ] It's degradation of the cells, I don't know why you'd need a brain scan for that.
[ <= didnt go to med school. or any school. but also his brain is fine wow
you open the xray and its just soup in there ]
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[ THE ARROGANCE but it's ok bc famine actually cares about patient consent ]
I don't think you know enough about your brain to be able to say. However when it comes to not being able to make sense of your memory, critical thinking, decision making, or motor skills—looking at the brain is often attached.
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[ famine can be arrogant and say he is better than hojo hojo is insane. ]
Good to know, I guess. Still not interested.
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[ says famine, also a freak, but at least a reasonable one. they nod... ]
Again, I do not ask to push: but is there a reason why besides general apprehension? You do not seek a cure?
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I don't trust you. [ hilariously he says no even to doctors he has no reason to distrust ]
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[ blunt is fine ]
But you don't want to know how to fix your problem? At all?
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That's not what I said. [ does he think there is actually a possible fix? not... really. the party is kind of working on living in denial about it happening to cloud so thinking about a fix is also not something he does much. ] But it's not like brain scans or blood tests are things that don't exist back home. No one's found anything.
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And you've allowed them to look? Is there a doctor you trust?
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[ condolences... ]
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Though I've been forced to encounter the unfamiliar here in terms of magic, I do not think I can be bested in the realm of science and medicine.
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It is nothing that I could not learn, if I tried.
[ the CONFIDENCE but regardless, ]
Nonetheless, you lack interest. I don't experiment on innocent people without their consent.
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You're right there. Not into being someone's lab rat.
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Most people aren't. I'm more shocked when people do volunteer for clinical trials, but I assume it comes with some level of desperation. Or a savior complex.
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