Yes. [she seems more sure of that.] It's...what I can do. Being who I am. Cetra are people of the planet, and if I can help everyone and the planet herself then that's what I want to do. I want to stop the people who don't care that she's dying, and who don't care who else dies to make profits and get what they want. [and another pause.] I want to get everyone out of here instead of only focusing on a few people.
[and yet she's aware there may be a point she has to pick and choose and that's going to be its own problem.]
[you know she liked this a lot better when she was the one asking famine questions.]
No. I know how to be selfish. [just another part of why she can't outright say "i'm a good person."] There's a lot of things I want, but...the focus is the bigger picture.
But it's a horrible question. [do we. do we love a trolley problem. on the other hand, she does actually get why they're asking in a roundabout way. their conversation led right to this.]
...I can't lose them. [loss intensifies. literally, i suppose, since it continues to glow under her bracelet.] The goal is still to do this without sacrificing more than we might have to.
[but the answer's the same. of course she would choose cloud and yuffie if there really wasn't another choice.]
[she seems to believe that, but that's also probably because she's been surrounded by a good handful of people who really are out here being intentionally cruel both in general and to her specifically. so. she can't be that mad.]
If you were to choose between yourself and the people in your country you're trying to provide a better life for, who would you choose?
But that is because I have had more than enough time, and my story is done. There is nothing left in the world for me to want. It is not personal, or because I believe their lives are worth more than mine.
Only that they are still incomplete.
[ and they look at her, assessing her as if trying to determine whether that is the case for her ]
[yeah no that sounds about right actually. not so much that she thinks there's nothing left in the world for her. of course there is. she's twenty-two, there's always something she still wants. she wants to experience new things and she wants to make new friends and she wants to maybe experience love again with another boy and actually be good for him.
but being who she is, she's aware that perhaps it was going to end this way. there are some threads of fate you can't avoid.]
...there are things I could say I still wish I could have. And of course I've wished for more time. But...I was never gonna have a normal life anyway. If finding a way to reverse what's happened would disrupt the chance for those I love to be able to live theirs, then...I'm happy with what I've been able to have. [and she won't ask for more than that.]
[ famine is quiet and though their expression doesn't change excessively, aerith will at least get the sense that they are listening intently ]
Is there no way for you to live alongside them? I understand that you have died, but is there no version of a wish that brings you back to life without compromising your goals?
[...well like. that's the thing. her death isn't so necessary so much as it is they don't know what's going to happen now. only a cetra can stop sephiroth using the power of holy, except she's dead now so maybe she can figure things out in the lifestream given the real location of where meteor is hidden.
but the actual question itself has made her pause to really think about this since she kind of hasn't put much thought into just going back to how things had played out.]
...maybe it isn't. But if this wish really is so powerful, there are other things I'd want to try first. [they could really just wish to actually stop sephiroth. that'd be a thing.] Maybe there are certain events that can't be changed no matter how hard you fight fate. But I guess the answer is I don't know.
There is a benefit of having multiple of you here, if you coordinate your wishes. Though it does rely on everyone being on the same page. [ just a bit pointedly ]
I have no stake in your choices. I merely find myself curious and seek to understand.
It's a risk none of us are ready to take yet. Even if a wish could be granted—[if, because she's still not sure how to feel about that.]—it opens us to the possibility of losing one of us anyway. And the wish itself can't really offer us protection from that, right?
...I don't think it's wrong to be curious. [because famine has given her some things to think about.] You're not really asking anything I'm surprised to hear, I think.
It can be granted. I understand your wariness, but factually, it works.
[ a mild correction ]
No, you cannot be safe from the machinations of this place with the wish, but that does not mean that you can't wish yourself alive back home regardless. It will simply be incomplete in that you will not remember anything that happened here.
[that's definitely a trade-off. if they could all coordinate their wishes to stop sephiroth, stop shinra, and bring her back...would that really work? or would the whispers still, somehow, overrule it all and redirect the course?
she is very obviously thinking this over.]
When things are a little more calm, maybe I'll ask Yuffie what she thinks then. [stop avoiding cloud.] But it's already been a hard couple of days. We still have some time, don't we?
Well! I appreciate your optimism. [help her.] ...I do have one more question. About the partnership. If you're linked to a partner and...if something like this happens again where a person is killed overnight. Is their partner going to die the same night, you think? Same with a situation like Boothill's where tomorrow's going to happen.
And it's hard to say if it'll be that immediate. Since it hasn't happened, we're not sure how quick it'll take place. Only that those two lives will definitely be linked if they find each other.
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[and yet she's aware there may be a point she has to pick and choose and that's going to be its own problem.]
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No. I know how to be selfish. [just another part of why she can't outright say "i'm a good person."] There's a lot of things I want, but...the focus is the bigger picture.
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Our goals align in getting as many people out of here as possible, so consider this a thought experiment.
But if you were to choose between your two companions, and ten other random people here, who would you choose? I do not think there is a wrong answer.
[ we love a trolley problem ]
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...I can't lose them. [loss intensifies. literally, i suppose, since it continues to glow under her bracelet.] The goal is still to do this without sacrificing more than we might have to.
[but the answer's the same. of course she would choose cloud and yuffie if there really wasn't another choice.]
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[ it really did come about from their conversation and stems generally from curiosity. a further interest in understanding aerith ]
... but you will still make them endure losing you?
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If you were to choose between yourself and the people in your country you're trying to provide a better life for, who would you choose?
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But that is because I have had more than enough time, and my story is done. There is nothing left in the world for me to want. It is not personal, or because I believe their lives are worth more than mine.
Only that they are still incomplete.
[ and they look at her, assessing her as if trying to determine whether that is the case for her ]
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but being who she is, she's aware that perhaps it was going to end this way. there are some threads of fate you can't avoid.]
...there are things I could say I still wish I could have. And of course I've wished for more time. But...I was never gonna have a normal life anyway. If finding a way to reverse what's happened would disrupt the chance for those I love to be able to live theirs, then...I'm happy with what I've been able to have. [and she won't ask for more than that.]
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Is there no way for you to live alongside them? I understand that you have died, but is there no version of a wish that brings you back to life without compromising your goals?
What is it about your death that is so necessary?
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but the actual question itself has made her pause to really think about this since she kind of hasn't put much thought into just going back to how things had played out.]
...maybe it isn't. But if this wish really is so powerful, there are other things I'd want to try first. [they could really just wish to actually stop sephiroth. that'd be a thing.] Maybe there are certain events that can't be changed no matter how hard you fight fate. But I guess the answer is I don't know.
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I have no stake in your choices. I merely find myself curious and seek to understand.
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It's a risk none of us are ready to take yet. Even if a wish could be granted—[if, because she's still not sure how to feel about that.]—it opens us to the possibility of losing one of us anyway. And the wish itself can't really offer us protection from that, right?
...I don't think it's wrong to be curious. [because famine has given her some things to think about.] You're not really asking anything I'm surprised to hear, I think.
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[ a mild correction ]
No, you cannot be safe from the machinations of this place with the wish, but that does not mean that you can't wish yourself alive back home regardless. It will simply be incomplete in that you will not remember anything that happened here.
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she is very obviously thinking this over.]
When things are a little more calm, maybe I'll ask Yuffie what she thinks then. [stop avoiding cloud.] But it's already been a hard couple of days. We still have some time, don't we?
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Unless you all die suddenly before you can coordinate your solutions, yes.
[ ok realist ]
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Well! I appreciate your optimism. [help her.] ...I do have one more question. About the partnership. If you're linked to a partner and...if something like this happens again where a person is killed overnight. Is their partner going to die the same night, you think? Same with a situation like Boothill's where tomorrow's going to happen.
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[ cants head to the side ]
And it's hard to say if it'll be that immediate. Since it hasn't happened, we're not sure how quick it'll take place. Only that those two lives will definitely be linked if they find each other.
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Just another wait and see kind of thing, huh. [not great, but understandable.] Thought I'd ask anyway. I'll give it all some thought.
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If we glean any more confirmed information, we'll share it.
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