[just noogies the absolute shit out of him but lovingly
no, she doesn't do that, but she leans on the bar, watching him.]
When I got thrown down into the Hells, they tore my heart out. [imagine i give you that memshare too] It took years for me to not be a bitter mess of a person. I was there for ten years, Nehan, and I wasn't always like the way I am now.
It got so miserable. I couldn't die, Zariel would just drag me back up again, so it was just endless killing my way through hoards, and there was nothing to look forward to, but then just - I don't know. One day I got up and decided that I needed to find some sort of happiness to hold onto, or I wasn't going to be a person anymore.
So I just tried to find one good thing a day. Sometimes the only good thing was that I woke up at all, but - that's the reason I looked up when the ship that I escaped on came through.
ten years. and she's still young, so... it's a huge swathe of life to just be someone else's wrecking ball; he'd have found death a mercy after that long. but maybe that's the whole point. she'd dug up a reason to want to be alive, day by day, even if it meant being afraid to lose it all. he hasn't been scared in a while, but that comes with its own issues.
he drums his fingers before raising his gaze from the sticky bartop to her. ]
Seems like you've managed to come out the other side relatively intact. Congratulations on still being a person.
[ his voice is always soft and dry, but in this case, it's sincere. it takes a lot to make it out of so much hardship and still be yourself. ]
I assume you have more than just one good thing a day now, as well.
[gives you it in the other thread to just absolutely ruin jamba juice
anyway, she smiles a little at that, the sincerity.]
Thanks. And yeah. I've got a lot of good things, most of which are people, but - other things, too. Music, good food. Comfy clothes, a warm bed to sleep in. I've only been here a day and it's improved.
[genuinely. but also:]
Never too late to find yourself again. I mean that - I know you don't believe me, but you've still got plenty of chances.
[she's still young, and so is he. arguably he has even more time than she does.]
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no, she doesn't do that, but she leans on the bar, watching him.]
When I got thrown down into the Hells, they tore my heart out. [imagine i give you that memshare too] It took years for me to not be a bitter mess of a person. I was there for ten years, Nehan, and I wasn't always like the way I am now.
It got so miserable. I couldn't die, Zariel would just drag me back up again, so it was just endless killing my way through hoards, and there was nothing to look forward to, but then just - I don't know. One day I got up and decided that I needed to find some sort of happiness to hold onto, or I wasn't going to be a person anymore.
So I just tried to find one good thing a day. Sometimes the only good thing was that I woke up at all, but - that's the reason I looked up when the ship that I escaped on came through.
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ten years. and she's still young, so... it's a huge swathe of life to just be someone else's wrecking ball; he'd have found death a mercy after that long. but maybe that's the whole point. she'd dug up a reason to want to be alive, day by day, even if it meant being afraid to lose it all. he hasn't been scared in a while, but that comes with its own issues.
he drums his fingers before raising his gaze from the sticky bartop to her. ]
Seems like you've managed to come out the other side relatively intact. Congratulations on still being a person.
[ his voice is always soft and dry, but in this case, it's sincere. it takes a lot to make it out of so much hardship and still be yourself. ]
I assume you have more than just one good thing a day now, as well.
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anyway, she smiles a little at that, the sincerity.]
Thanks. And yeah. I've got a lot of good things, most of which are people, but - other things, too. Music, good food. Comfy clothes, a warm bed to sleep in. I've only been here a day and it's improved.
[genuinely. but also:]
Never too late to find yourself again. I mean that - I know you don't believe me, but you've still got plenty of chances.
[she's still young, and so is he. arguably he has even more time than she does.]