[ scien is so funny. he could literally just say thank you instead of exhalting gale to blorbo FOR LIFE but i guess gods don't do things in half measures. or maybe scien is just a guy who cares a whole fucking lot and doesn't know how to be normal about it. ]

Then I will consider what we could work on. I have rather extensive laundry list of problems, but I do still have my pride so I'd like to solve some of them myself, you know.

[ but really the simple fact is that it's kind of actually a relief to just ... try and help mathis. he's spent these last few weeks very embroiled in his own personal dramas, and it starts feeling all rather selfish, when the things that actually have made all of this worth it over the last few months have for other people. a brother and sister arguing over who was the bigger idiot in trying to rescue the other. a young couple reunited, dancing together by the river. night orchids, blooming in the shadow-cursed lands. it's easy to lose sight of those things sometimes. ]