audience: astarion

[mygod]

Comments

[haematocritical]

[ he'll do a little twirl for him, but it's a muted one. ]

Freedom is already a giant burden, but one I'll just have to get used to. I... would've prefer it not come to me via a knife to her heart. [ selfish though. the only way he would've got it would be to have killed anyway. ]

[unconsecuted]

[There is a subtle, brief spark of amusement that flares up at the stupid twirl, but then it fades into solemn understanding.]

I know. Let's not sully her wants and also her sacrifice by not doing it, though.

[Karlach would be so pissed, he knows. He knows Astarion knows.]

Gale, too. He told me he wants that for you, but only if it's your choice.

[haematocritical]

If I'd wanted to sully her wants, my dear, I wouldn't have stabbed her.

[ simple as. and then she'd have gone boom on main and he'd have felt terrible. ]

... I want that for me. But not if it came from tying my life to someone else's. This is... a gift I can make use of, received in a rather awful way.

[unconsecuted]

[He watches him for a long moment. The vibes are sympathetic, but resolute.]

Then take it, Astarion. It was not Karlach's fault nor your own what happened to her. She left you with the opportunity, and she would certainly want you to reap the benefits of having to go through with something she likely never wanted you to feel like you had to do again.

It was awful, but in the end... you saved her, and... she saved you.

[haematocritical]

... She'd also probably dangle me upside down and shake me if she found out I didn't, I suppose.

[ imagine that. ]

Do I just go down there and select what I want, then?