[yeah no that sounds about right actually. not so much that she thinks there's nothing left in the world for her. of course there is. she's twenty-two, there's always something she still wants. she wants to experience new things and she wants to make new friends and she wants to maybe experience love again with another boy and actually be good for him.

but being who she is, she's aware that perhaps it was going to end this way. there are some threads of fate you can't avoid.]

...there are things I could say I still wish I could have. And of course I've wished for more time. But...I was never gonna have a normal life anyway. If finding a way to reverse what's happened would disrupt the chance for those I love to be able to live theirs, then...I'm happy with what I've been able to have. [and she won't ask for more than that.]