[FORCES YOUR FURRY INTO FRIENDSHIP FORCES YOUR FURRY INTO FRIENDSHIP can't believe they were just two guilty catholics in trenchcoats all this time (lucas isn't wearing a trenchcoat) maybe so.
There's a little flicker of understanding at the feeling and then a touch of surprise at the gesture, followed by another roll of something warm. He can't hide his friendship goobers. It's a comforting gesture, along with the words said, which he meets with a thin smile.]
I know... I'll certainly wait until I'm well again to try for any of the bigger changes that I think I may be able to help with. My priorities are always with Nadia, and that means being careful as I recover. [Even though he too often just lets destiny take the wheel, so he can understand the begrudging vibes.]
But I'll need to take Nadia away from that hospital first, and while I'm there, I'll at least defang the Society. That isn't more than I can handle.
[He will not feel Catholic Guilt for supermurdering the man that drugged him and kept his sister sick for 8 years... GUOBA GUOBA GOOBY.]
...I hope that you see changes in your home, too. Even if they're small at first. Even if you aren't the one who starts them.
[ HE WASN'T EVEN COVERING IT UP WITH A TRENCHCOAT HE IS JUST FULL BLAST CATHOLIC GUILT ALL OF THE TIME but also please get better at hiding the friendship goobers he does not want these get away from him ]
...If you're sure. You do need to take her somewhere safe.
[ that's fair enough. nehan does believe there are people who deserve death, and the society seems like they could use a little comeuppance. does he think that lucas should have to deal with his own manipulators? no. but lucas can do what he thinks he's capable of living with, at least. ]
My world is... [ ... ] It's a little cleaner now. That particular organization has been mostly destroyed, at least. There will always be another to replace it, always dregs left over, but I've seen meager improvements. We'll see if it sticks.
[LISTEN........ maybe so... ALSO STOP HE'S BAD AT REPRESSING HIS FEELINGS!!! He's just very good at not showing them externally which is terrible during emotionshare week.]
It won't be any additional strain, at least.
[Ortie can simply deal with the viciousness and violence he painstakingly grew within Lucas coming back to remorselessly kill his ass.]
...I'm glad to hear that, though. [And there is a genuine sense of relief, a little flicker of something happy, even if it's far from a truly bettered world.] I hope that it sticks. Even if others replace what's gone, I hope that things can continue to improve, even if bit by bit.
[ shakes hands in emoshare being the worst week actually. still thinking about how this dude did all this because he has a gene boner
again, he is so fatalistic that it's hard to imagine real, lasting change. but it's a nice dream, if only he'll someday allow himself to have it. in the meantime, he's quiet for a moment before finally drawing his hands back, no longer sensing much of that violence in lucas which is very funny because then thursday happens
he speaks softly and hoarsely, like this is a part of his voice that he's forgotten how to use. ]
...If what you want is to make your world a little better, then I hope that's possible.
ALSO I HATE IT HERE. It's fine, the violence is gone for now, even though it will be back with a vengeance Thursday. Oh no. But also, this is such a genuinely touching thing to hear from Nehan, in this voice that's raw and honest, with words probably a little painful to give in the same way that it's a bit painful to receive them. It's the sort of pain to cherish, though. Not because he's an m.]
Thank you. [He keeps saying it even though Nehan is allergic.] One can only continue to try, I suppose... In any case.
[He will politely hold a hand out for his meds, and you can escape from this thread if you wish since im about to bodyslam you for one tomorrow.]
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There's a little flicker of understanding at the feeling and then a touch of surprise at the gesture, followed by another roll of something warm. He can't hide his friendship goobers. It's a comforting gesture, along with the words said, which he meets with a thin smile.]
I know... I'll certainly wait until I'm well again to try for any of the bigger changes that I think I may be able to help with. My priorities are always with Nadia, and that means being careful as I recover. [Even though he too often just lets destiny take the wheel, so he can understand the begrudging vibes.]
But I'll need to take Nadia away from that hospital first, and while I'm there, I'll at least defang the Society. That isn't more than I can handle.
[He will not feel Catholic Guilt for supermurdering the man that drugged him and kept his sister sick for 8 years... GUOBA GUOBA GOOBY.]
...I hope that you see changes in your home, too. Even if they're small at first. Even if you aren't the one who starts them.
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...If you're sure. You do need to take her somewhere safe.
[ that's fair enough. nehan does believe there are people who deserve death, and the society seems like they could use a little comeuppance. does he think that lucas should have to deal with his own manipulators? no. but lucas can do what he thinks he's capable of living with, at least. ]
My world is... [ ... ] It's a little cleaner now. That particular organization has been mostly destroyed, at least. There will always be another to replace it, always dregs left over, but I've seen meager improvements. We'll see if it sticks.
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It won't be any additional strain, at least.
[Ortie can simply deal with the viciousness and violence he painstakingly grew within Lucas coming back to remorselessly kill his ass.]
...I'm glad to hear that, though. [And there is a genuine sense of relief, a little flicker of something happy, even if it's far from a truly bettered world.] I hope that it sticks. Even if others replace what's gone, I hope that things can continue to improve, even if bit by bit.
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again, he is so fatalistic that it's hard to imagine real, lasting change. but it's a nice dream, if only he'll someday allow himself to have it. in the meantime, he's quiet for a moment before finally drawing his hands back, no longer sensing much of that violence in lucas which is very funny because then thursday happens
he speaks softly and hoarsely, like this is a part of his voice that he's forgotten how to use. ]
...If what you want is to make your world a little better, then I hope that's possible.
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ALSO I HATE IT HERE. It's fine, the violence is gone for now, even though it will be back with a vengeance Thursday. Oh no. But also, this is such a genuinely touching thing to hear from Nehan, in this voice that's raw and honest, with words probably a little painful to give in the same way that it's a bit painful to receive them. It's the sort of pain to cherish, though. Not because he's an m.]
Thank you. [He keeps saying it even though Nehan is allergic.] One can only continue to try, I suppose... In any case.
[He will politely hold a hand out for his meds, and you can escape from this thread if you wish since im about to bodyslam you for one tomorrow.]