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Yes... [KILL MORE PEOPLE. AT THE VERY LEAST GIVE HIM HIS WATER BOTTLE. He's too full of Catholic Guilt and very big on agency to send that outright but it's the vibes of his heart.]
...Well. Nothing much to be done here, beyond continuing to open tomes and such. We ought to find out what else we've unlocked tomorrow.
...Well. Nothing much to be done here, beyond continuing to open tomes and such. We ought to find out what else we've unlocked tomorrow.
[Muelsyse doesn't deserve having to put up with cage route she is too lovely.
Lucas just gives her hand a very gentle squeeze and offers a small smile. The vibes are fucking exhausted, but in a We Carry Ever Onward way.]
I'm very used to overcoming trials. [IT'S FINE HE'S FINE.] Though I do wish that they would stop worsening for a moment, if only because so many seem as though they need to take a breath...
Lucas just gives her hand a very gentle squeeze and offers a small smile. The vibes are fucking exhausted, but in a We Carry Ever Onward way.]
I'm very used to overcoming trials. [IT'S FINE HE'S FINE.] Though I do wish that they would stop worsening for a moment, if only because so many seem as though they need to take a breath...
[SHORT AND IMMEDIATELY FOLLOWED BY TERROR AND ANXIETY. THAT'S JUST A PANIC ATTACK. Grim...
There's a little flicker of guilt because he's too fucking Catholic and he always feels badly when people wish they could do more for him. NO!! IT IS HE WHO WISHES HE COULD DO MORE FOR OTHERS!! But he still manages another smile.]
...Thank you. I consider you a friend as well, so I understand the frustration of not being able to do much beyond talking, even if I'd rather have that than nothing at all. [The hole era...]
There's a little flicker of guilt because he's too fucking Catholic and he always feels badly when people wish they could do more for him. NO!! IT IS HE WHO WISHES HE COULD DO MORE FOR OTHERS!! But he still manages another smile.]
...Thank you. I consider you a friend as well, so I understand the frustration of not being able to do much beyond talking, even if I'd rather have that than nothing at all. [The hole era...]
[ well, ]
I’ve discovered have no natural talent for it.
Even after attending to Nadia, I don’t know what young girls like or what they would feel most comforted hearing. I also don’t know how to be gentle enough while also delivering the truth. You and I are inherently different that way.
[ HELP ]
I’ve discovered have no natural talent for it.
Even after attending to Nadia, I don’t know what young girls like or what they would feel most comforted hearing. I also don’t know how to be gentle enough while also delivering the truth. You and I are inherently different that way.
[ HELP ]
Edited 2024-07-22 03:36 (UTC)
[ but his emotions are reflective. quiet. the cat purrs against his attention, and scien lingers in that spot and the kitty melts against his touch.
data points.
every little indicator is a data point that he can take in and adjust his behavior to best lead to someone else’s contentment. to see someone with clear, straightforward eyes and provide his version of care from there. ]
… but she felt like she had no one else. So I could not turn her away. She asked me for my help before she even became a monster, and wanted to know what she could do in return.
But making children pay to be helped is nonsense.
So I had to change the shape of my help. And I decided that even if I possess no natural gift for caretaking, I would learn it.
data points.
every little indicator is a data point that he can take in and adjust his behavior to best lead to someone else’s contentment. to see someone with clear, straightforward eyes and provide his version of care from there. ]
… but she felt like she had no one else. So I could not turn her away. She asked me for my help before she even became a monster, and wanted to know what she could do in return.
But making children pay to be helped is nonsense.
So I had to change the shape of my help. And I decided that even if I possess no natural gift for caretaking, I would learn it.
[HELP.
Maybe if he were in a better mood, it'd be something he'd feel a bit amused by. That even after spending time with Nadia, who makes herself well known so easily, he still had no idea how to go about interacting with a young girl.
Instead, he just feels another twist of something like nostalgia. He watches Scien's cat enjoy being spoiled for a moment, though his attention's drawn away pretty swiftly by his own, a little ball of energy hopping to and fro in an attempt to pin down the toy. There's a tiny flicker of a smile, there and gone.]
Caretakers often don't have a natural aptitude. [That would imply every parent was born good at it, which they certainly aren't.] It's more dependent on the willingness to learn and improve, and the amount of time a person spends doing so. [...] I hope that Kate felt looked after, if nothing else.
[Something soft and concerned surfaces, existing alongside the sharper negative feelings.]
Maybe if he were in a better mood, it'd be something he'd feel a bit amused by. That even after spending time with Nadia, who makes herself well known so easily, he still had no idea how to go about interacting with a young girl.
Instead, he just feels another twist of something like nostalgia. He watches Scien's cat enjoy being spoiled for a moment, though his attention's drawn away pretty swiftly by his own, a little ball of energy hopping to and fro in an attempt to pin down the toy. There's a tiny flicker of a smile, there and gone.]
Caretakers often don't have a natural aptitude. [That would imply every parent was born good at it, which they certainly aren't.] It's more dependent on the willingness to learn and improve, and the amount of time a person spends doing so. [...] I hope that Kate felt looked after, if nothing else.
[Something soft and concerned surfaces, existing alongside the sharper negative feelings.]
You'd have to ask her.
[ he'll just settle himself entirely on the ground then, accepting the kitty climbing on him as he continues to pet it with one hand as the other still loosely holds onto lucas's ]
I don't care to speak for her, or claim that I did a good job.
Only that, if she is arriving tomorrow, I won't allow myself to fail moving forward. If she chooses life, despite everything that happened, she ought to experience a life worth living.
[ he'll just settle himself entirely on the ground then, accepting the kitty climbing on him as he continues to pet it with one hand as the other still loosely holds onto lucas's ]
I don't care to speak for her, or claim that I did a good job.
Only that, if she is arriving tomorrow, I won't allow myself to fail moving forward. If she chooses life, despite everything that happened, she ought to experience a life worth living.
[Look. Two can play at the gremlin game, though his is maybe more condescending sometimes and unnecessarily sassy. Cat behavior.]
Ah. But you do intend on jumping in front of the missile to save others.
Ah. But you do intend on jumping in front of the missile to save others.
[ i really don't think lucas of all people gets to metatext this ]
...I see. How did you feel when you lost it?
[ he's not surprised that lucas would realize exactly what he was missing, once he got it back. everything about him indicates that this would make sense. he tries not to sound too curious, but he is, a little. it must be strange to lose such a formative crux of his existence.
also i will give you a mem after i pick one hm ]
...I see. How did you feel when you lost it?
[ he's not surprised that lucas would realize exactly what he was missing, once he got it back. everything about him indicates that this would make sense. he tries not to sound too curious, but he is, a little. it must be strange to lose such a formative crux of his existence.
also i will give you a mem after i pick one hm ]
[He does finally slip his hand away from Scien's, though it's mostly because he uses both hands to settle on the ground, too, and arrange his clothing nicely. He's hardly sitting for ten seconds before another fat cat decides to come join the party, roughly headbutting into his side before running after the toy, too. Now he's got two cats chasing after this stupid wiggly rope, like a pied cat piper...
The vibes are faintly amused.]
I agree. [Unsurprisingly.] And I hope that she will. She should arrive tomorrow, after Robin's death. I suppose we can both speak to her then.
The vibes are faintly amused.]
I agree. [Unsurprisingly.] And I hope that she will. She should arrive tomorrow, after Robin's death. I suppose we can both speak to her then.
[STOP HE DOESN'T EXIST IN A DEPRESSION CLOUD he exists in a catholic guilt cloud they're different. Also he has bursts of murderous violence instead of anger. IT'S DIFFERENT.
Anyway, the curiosity is fair enough, and he doesn't seem bothered by the question regardless. Recalling the sensation is unpleasant, though. He can get some of those discomforted vibes.]
I could tell that I was missing something, but not what it was... So at the time, it just felt like that. That there was a part of me that was gone. Strange and empty, but not exactly anything that made me feel upset or angry.
[you better not forget or i will kill you, nu, on the mingle]
Anyway, the curiosity is fair enough, and he doesn't seem bothered by the question regardless. Recalling the sensation is unpleasant, though. He can get some of those discomforted vibes.]
I could tell that I was missing something, but not what it was... So at the time, it just felt like that. That there was a part of me that was gone. Strange and empty, but not exactly anything that made me feel upset or angry.
[you better not forget or i will kill you, nu, on the mingle]
[Thinking about how he banters so naturally with Scien but every time it happens it makes his brainwashing angy. A STUPID CYCLE TO BE STUCK IN.]
What will you do if I grade you poorly?
[Truly the emotional vibes are hilarious, because Scien's pulling a little bit of the core of him out that's willing to joke without sharp edges, but then he just feels angrier at the same time, which is frustrating since he's starting to get a slightly better feel for when his emotions are incongruous. Very, very slightly. Basically just enough to subconsciously rile him a tiny bit. He's just so full of tiny furies.]
What will you do if I grade you poorly?
[Truly the emotional vibes are hilarious, because Scien's pulling a little bit of the core of him out that's willing to joke without sharp edges, but then he just feels angrier at the same time, which is frustrating since he's starting to get a slightly better feel for when his emotions are incongruous. Very, very slightly. Basically just enough to subconsciously rile him a tiny bit. He's just so full of tiny furies.]
Steal one of your lesson plans? It's not like I expect to know everything instantly.
[ it's soooo funny my god lucas is a little mess—but scien just continues to banter easily because the goal was to get lucas to relax some, and it feels like they took baby steps toward that. the little angry part can exist, but lucas has to learn to coexist with it anyway so he doesn't draw attention to it
instead he's taking this joke very seriously.... in an unserious way... ]
I'd let you give me a penalty but what if it's too annoying...
[ it's soooo funny my god lucas is a little mess—but scien just continues to banter easily because the goal was to get lucas to relax some, and it feels like they took baby steps toward that. the little angry part can exist, but lucas has to learn to coexist with it anyway so he doesn't draw attention to it
instead he's taking this joke very seriously.... in an unserious way... ]
I'd let you give me a penalty but what if it's too annoying...
[sTOP TRYING TO BANTER WITH HIM WHEN HE'S ANGY. His emotions are truly at their peak mess when Scien is involved. There's a little wobble of something in the nasty tangled feelings ball, like when a spinning top starts to lose its balance, but also the emotion of :tails:. He distracts himself from it by whipping the cat toy around and sending both cats skittering across the floor.]
I don't keep lesson plans on how to care for people dear to you. [HE'S NOT A SOCIOPATH. He's just psychotic, sometimes. A different flavor of it compared to Scien.]
A penalty wouldn't be a penalty if it weren't inconvenient at best, either.
I don't keep lesson plans on how to care for people dear to you. [HE'S NOT A SOCIOPATH. He's just psychotic, sometimes. A different flavor of it compared to Scien.]
A penalty wouldn't be a penalty if it weren't inconvenient at best, either.
That's something you have to figure out.
[TRIAL AND ERROR IT LIKE THE REST OF US BINCH.
Also hate it here so damn bad. This would be a kinky question for other people but unfortunately it's Scien talking to his dog that's programmed to kill him, so instead of thinking something embarrassingly horny, he just has to fight through a wave of absolutely insane vicious delight at the thought of Scien failing with anything and being able to dole out punishment (the punishment is death). GRITTING OUT:]
A teacher worth their salt would never hope for the failure of a student.
[He wants to hit Scien over the head with a metal folding chair.]
[TRIAL AND ERROR IT LIKE THE REST OF US BINCH.
Also hate it here so damn bad. This would be a kinky question for other people but unfortunately it's Scien talking to his dog that's programmed to kill him, so instead of thinking something embarrassingly horny, he just has to fight through a wave of absolutely insane vicious delight at the thought of Scien failing with anything and being able to dole out punishment (the punishment is death). GRITTING OUT:]
A teacher worth their salt would never hope for the failure of a student.
[He wants to hit Scien over the head with a metal folding chair.]
I don't truly think of myself as your student, so I think you should be allowed to have a little bit of fun coming up with a penalty for me if the results aren't up to par.
You may do the same thing if you ultimately find that my methods of looking after you are lacking as well.
[ the way scien just keeps giving lucas power for fun ]
You may do the same thing if you ultimately find that my methods of looking after you are lacking as well.
[ the way scien just keeps giving lucas power for fun ]
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