audience: mathis

[mygod]

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[plonked... he yelps in surprise, then pulls it off of his face, just sort of keeping hold of it for the sake of having something to hold on to.

ooooooh the realization he sobbed on scien is coming. it isn't hitting yet but it will. oh n.]

What... what was happening-? I don't remember that place at all...

[egodist]

And you won't, because we are from two different timelines. Keep up.

[ please be nice super genius ]

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We are...?

[what in the. what.]

Wait, but then are Lucas and I...

[do you ever just not talk to your castmate about what was happening before you got here (because you didn't want to talk about the murder lab) and now you're forced to confront the potential existence of alternative timelines (murder lab status uncertain)]

[egodist]

If the two of you didn't bother to have this conversation, I am not going to do you the favor of breaching the topic for you.

[ THINK ABOUT HOW MUCH SCIEN HAS HAD TO JUST

SIT HERE

WATCHING OTHER PEOPLE BE STUPID this is just canon ]

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I'll ask him later...

[yeah this is very true to canon

no wonder he was on the fucking ground after trial. put him in the dirt. spare him.]

[egodist]

Do as you please.

[ he's not getting into it... anyway. ]

So obviously, I can help you.

[ OBVIOUSLY!!!! GOD!!!!! ]

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I- yes... um, then what do I need to do?

[like

he's not going to question scien. he knows something in that timeline, certainly, if camille was acting like the self mathis has seen now, and scien called him by his real surname...

but also? it's scien. he wouldn't question this anyway.]

[egodist]

[ more people should question scien perhaps

but honestly he is still speaking with the absolute certainty of GOD ]

Be patient, mostly. I don't have all the pieces I need to recreate the machinery and collecting them without drawing the attention of the cult is a pain, so it's taking longer than I'd like. Even still, you shouldn't fall apart just yet.

I've already fixed you once. I can do it again.

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Then, if there's any way that I can help...

[but he is, very clearly, bolstered by the idea of this. i've fixed you once. i can do it again.

that's-- so much easier to cling to, coming from scien. it feels less like a vague hope from a stranger, more like a tangible possibility.]

[egodist]

The path you've been on hasn't been bad.

[ that's practically praise coming from scien ]

Self-improvement. Carrying your weight. Not giving up.

You're a little bit more like the you that I know this way, rather than the sniveling scared mess you arrived as.

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...I'm going to try to keep going, then.

[he can be patient. he can keep trying. if scien is right, which he probably is, there's a mathis that did it.]

A-and... I don't want you to compare me to the Mathis that you know. If I heard about him, I might end up just... trying to be like him.

[egodist]

There is not one singular path to some 'true self'.

[ ankou and adolphe proved that ]

I will keep my analysis to myself, but I also am not particularly worried. It is circumstances and people who shape you, and you have already had a noticeably different set handed to you.

[ to say the least. jean you fucking freak ]

I'll hit Claude One for you, when I return. [ a beat ] Well. If I return.

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[yeah! jean you freak! man.

but also, it's extremely concerning to hear him say that last part.]

If-?!

[egodist]

When I agreed to come here, I didn't particularly intend to go back to Arpéchéle.

[ oh man i did not miss these little french accents ]

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I- I thought for a moment that you meant... you might not be able to...

[stop terrifying him for five seconds]

[egodist]

I suppose if I die here, then I won't go back, too.

[ SO THERE'S THAT

IT'S NOT INCORRECT ]

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But they couldn't actually... kill you. Could they?

['they already killed death' yeah well.]

[egodist]

Why are you speaking to me as if I'm some immortal being? I've already died multiple times.

I have no back-ups here, so if they manage it, then it would actually stick.

[ the true end of scien brofiise ]

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Then we'll have to... be sure they don't manage that, whether you return to Arpéchéle or not.

[you know. just like they have to get lucas home. mathis may be the leakiest little travel-size water bottle of the three of them but that doesn't mean he won't WORRY ABOUT THEM BOTH.]

[egodist]

Do not be overly concerned with it.

All my affairs are in order. The curse is solved. The island is open to other countries. I'm already 26.

It's as good a time to die as any, if it happens.

[ lots of info just thrown out there at once ]

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[THAT'S A LOT OF INFO SCIENNNN

give him a few seconds to. to process.]

The curse is--

Then, Ceres...?

[egodist]

How easily heartbroken are you.

[ NO ]

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I... I don't know.

[genuine. HE DOESN'T KNOW BUT HE MAY BE ABOUT TO LEARN.]

Please, is she all right-

[is this "she's seeing someone else" heartbreak or "she's dead" heartbreak, because as long as she's alive--

he accepted his own death, only wanted to save her, so if she's alive and happy, isn't that what he wanted?]

[egodist]

Yes. She's alive. Well. Cured, after a few years of treatments. I think she's kissing her....

Not brother? Well, they had the same mother... figure.

[ STOP STOP STOP ]

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A-Adolphe-?!

[THE NOT-BROTHER IS A SURPRISE

he's silent for a minute, though, processing that. she's alive. cured. she's had a few more years, already, and she...]

She must... be happy with him, then. I'm relieved that she could still...

[no matter how his own timeline goes, there's a ceres who really has found someone who can truly love her, right?]