If he doesn't have me, then he also doesn't... have time to start an experiment all over again, I think... s-so it would have to stop. It would have to...
[sometimes you're going through it and you're also a little scrambled. it's fine.]
S-sorry. I'm sorry, I... yes.
[give him a second, he's piecing together what context he's left out.]
I was- created, but I don't think that the person who did that has the time to repeat everything over again, h-hopefully... I didn't know, until just before I woke up here. So if I don't make it back... I hope that he'll have to stop.
[opens his mouth to apologize before they say not to take that as an order
closes his mouth.]
... he... killed a number of people to be able to create me, and- kept others from being revived properly without their memory data. He's gone so far for it, but I don't... I still don't want anything to happen to him.
[the person who took care of him every day-- that couldn't have been completely false too, could it-?]
[ they consider for a moment, and then speak as they tend their plants. their voice is calm and quiet, bordering gently on brusque. ]
People like that don't just come to a stop, in my experience. You might want to hope that he'll do so—without intervention, with just your absence.
I don't know what motivates him, whether it's greed, or grief, or anger. But if he spent so much to create you, then he may feel the cost is sunk—it must continue, or it didn't mean anything at all.
Yes. I-it is... so I'm not very used to thinking about doing the things I'd like to do at all. There have always been... things that needed to come first.
Still, you never know when things might go south. For instance, in this situation. Everyone only gets so much time. Do you regret not living the way you want? Giving it some thought?
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Oh? Why not?
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[right? he hopes so.]
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We don't get dossiers on you. I don't know your background.
Are you saying that you're dying for some reason? And that your home would be better off without you?
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S-sorry. I'm sorry, I... yes.
[give him a second, he's piecing together what context he's left out.]
I was- created, but I don't think that the person who did that has the time to repeat everything over again, h-hopefully... I didn't know, until just before I woke up here. So if I don't make it back... I hope that he'll have to stop.
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Don't apologize. [...] Don't take that as an order either.
Why do you consider your creation a... mistake?
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closes his mouth.]
... he... killed a number of people to be able to create me, and- kept others from being revived properly without their memory data. He's gone so far for it, but I don't... I still don't want anything to happen to him.
[the person who took care of him every day-- that couldn't have been completely false too, could it-?]
I just want him to stop.
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People like that don't just come to a stop, in my experience. You might want to hope that he'll do so—without intervention, with just your absence.
I don't know what motivates him, whether it's greed, or grief, or anger. But if he spent so much to create you, then he may feel the cost is sunk—it must continue, or it didn't mean anything at all.
What then?
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what then, indeed. if he redoubled his efforts, might he do something worse? would it be a worse end than if mathis just returned to him?]
I... I don't know what he might do, anymore.
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At your age, you should be a grubby-fingered brat, thinking about what it is you want to do.
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[it's not like life would ever have been about what he wanted, if it were allowed.]
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[ they busy themselves with their plants again, searching for herbs within the neatly tilled rows. ]
The world becomes very small for someone like that. The clan leader's son in my village was similar.
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Still, you never know when things might go south. For instance, in this situation. Everyone only gets so much time. Do you regret not living the way you want? Giving it some thought?