audience: mathis

[mygod]

Comments

[cumulative]

O-oh.

[okay. well. maybe that... changes things, a little, potentially.]

...I probably shouldn't... use something like that just to... live longer, but...

[but what if he could make sure ceres is safe that way.]

[mygod]

You keep making these statements as if they are some morally right option. I ask you again—why not?

It is your life. It is your wish. Do as you please.

[cumulative]

That is what I want. F-for someone else to... be able to live happily.

[without him. it's better like that.]

[mygod]

And why would you place them above yourself? Why are you not in the picture?

[cumulative]

Because that's... what she deserves. To be happy, and... have someone who loves her.

[mygod]

Are you suggesting that you do not?

[cumulative]

Not the way that... someone should. Not for real.

[just because of his memories.]

[mygod]

[ sighs ]

Is this another illogical conclusion that you're arriving to purely because you're down on yourself?

[cumulative]

I-it isn't.

[it's based entirely in logic?]

[mygod]

Then explain yourself to me.

[cumulative]

[after a second-]

F-first, can I... ask why you'd like to know...?

[they truly showed up like 'i'm busy /:' and now they're interrogating him he's very confused]

[mygod]

No.

[ wow rude ]

I think you're stalling for time because you've realized that your argument is full of holes.

[cumulative]

I-I really did want to know-!

[let him live!!]

[mygod]

Then I will tell you if you're able to convince me of your logic.

Consider it a reward.

[cumulative]

You... aren't very easy to convince.

[but all right, all right, he's sufficiently bullied into explaining.]

The, um, person who made me wanted to bring back the woman he loved. He... copied some of his memories of her into me, but they both looked similar...

I never realized the woman who I was thinking about wasn't... she wasn't the one in front of me. Not until I found out what I am. I was only-- remembering being in love with someone else.

[mygod]

So the one that you say that you're in love with now...

Have you forgotten all the memories that she made with only you?

[cumulative]

I... I haven't forgotten, but... I remember them more clearly now. I called her by the wrong name before, and I remember assuming I thought of her more than once when I was really... thinking of someone else.

Those feelings are all- tied to the person he wanted to revive.

[mygod]

But were you thinking of that person every time? Is it true that you never truly saw the person that you claim to love for who she was?

Or is it that, just because some parts are stained, you are trying to throw out the whole of your experience with her?

[cumulative]

It happened- enough for it to matter. When I felt strongly enough.

[...]

And she still deserves someone who... who knows who they are, and could love her confidently. I'm sure that she would find a good person like that.

[mygod]

[ the mask is in place, but there is the emotional energy of an eyeroll here ]

Unlikely. You're probably just filling in the emotional gaps to tell yourself that it's alright if you die and leave her behind because you're in a tumultuous state.

There is nothing stopping you from becoming that person except yourself.

[cumulative]

No. No, sh-she needs to leave me behind.

[quickly shaking his head.]

He wanted to make her... part of the experiment. I can't get away from him, but she could still... she could still run. She promised to run.

[mygod]

You have the opportunity to have a wish granted that you could a great number of these problems, or seek help from anyone from any multitude of worlds that could have untold solutions—and you are already giving up the idea that something could happen to save either of you.

That is senseless.

Why? Is your self-hatred so great that you won't even try?

[cumulative]

If it saves her, then that's... all that matters. If she lives, and he can't kill anyone else, th-then it's enough, even if it means that I die.

[mygod]

Then get creative.

You're fond of stories, no? Isn't it up to the writer to come up with new, original ways that it can unfold?

[cumulative]

[well. lmao. that specific example leaves him quiet for a minute.]

I don't know if I have those. The last time I tried to write a story, it was... just a copy all along.