I imagine it is a cold comfort if I am to remind you that regardless of anything that happened here, you were always at risk of it.
[ virches have so many problems in terms of longevity. even if sometimes you come alive again, dying is almost always in the cards because of canon reasons. but scien will look at her for a moment before gesturing for her to bend down. closer.
if she acquiesces, he will used his gloved hands to gently hold onto her face, thumbs brushing away at her tears ]
[it is a cold comfort - she knew it was a possibility, when lucas and mathis sat her down and told her their time was limited. it's why they'd bonded so fast. three people with a time bomb, trying to make the best of the time they had left. she just figured she'd go first. but - no such luck, there.
when he gestures, she does bend down, and... is surprised, a little. it's a gentle gesture, and it makes her feel like she might explode. she doesn't, of course, but it's a real concern.
she drags in a shaky, horrible breath.]
Going to run out of the tears eventually. [she says, with a hiccup.] I haven't fucking stopped since Lucas.
[ he doesn't mind, standing there, brushing away her tears as they come. it's fine if they don't stop, as the little repetitive motions are easy. scien isn't moved to tears, but he did say that he would take care of her. even if he cannot solve everything that happened here...
he will do his best. ]
Then keep crying until you run dry. Have a cup of tea for your throat, and then cry all over again if you need it.
It would be far more pitiful if no one cried for them. Their lives were and are worth mourning.
[this is soothing in a way that she wasn't expecting. it's kind of nice to just sit here and let him do this, and slowly let her shoulders come down from around her ears.
maybe he can't solve things, but she isn't really even looking for that. this is about all she can ask for, and she's happy to have it.]
[ it would be wrong to say that his voice is gentle. it's not. there isn't anything truly affectionate about scien, but something in his tone softens. ]
I do not mind seeing this cracked and pitiful part of you. You will find your strength again in time, because it is also a part of you. We both know that to be true. But until then...
[ he said he'd look after her. even if he is still not entirely sure how, or may not be entirely good at it. this is one more new thing that he is willing to learn. ]
I don't do things in half measures. I won't turn you away now.
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[ virches have so many problems in terms of longevity. even if sometimes you come alive again, dying is almost always in the cards because of canon reasons. but scien will look at her for a moment before gesturing for her to bend down. closer.
if she acquiesces, he will used his gloved hands to gently hold onto her face, thumbs brushing away at her tears ]
Go ahead and cry. And complain.
I will keep your secrets.
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when he gestures, she does bend down, and... is surprised, a little. it's a gentle gesture, and it makes her feel like she might explode. she doesn't, of course, but it's a real concern.
she drags in a shaky, horrible breath.]
Going to run out of the tears eventually. [she says, with a hiccup.] I haven't fucking stopped since Lucas.
[and then, miserably:]
My fucking engine hurts.
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he will do his best. ]
Then keep crying until you run dry. Have a cup of tea for your throat, and then cry all over again if you need it.
It would be far more pitiful if no one cried for them. Their lives were and are worth mourning.
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maybe he can't solve things, but she isn't really even looking for that. this is about all she can ask for, and she's happy to have it.]
Thanks.
[she croaks. a little lame laugh:]
You haven't got to be this nice to me.
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[ it would be wrong to say that his voice is gentle. it's not. there isn't anything truly affectionate about scien, but something in his tone softens. ]
I do not mind seeing this cracked and pitiful part of you. You will find your strength again in time, because it is also a part of you. We both know that to be true. But until then...
[ he said he'd look after her. even if he is still not entirely sure how, or may not be entirely good at it. this is one more new thing that he is willing to learn. ]
I don't do things in half measures. I won't turn you away now.
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You really don't. [do things in half measures.] You can see this, if you want. It's a fucking wild, amazing thing, but I trust you.
But I want to promise I'll help you when you need it, too. Even in the small ways.
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My attention is not conditional. You do not need to give me anything in return, though I know you offer because you are... you.
But I won't betray that trust.