[MMMMFFF. The disgruntled look of someone who can't argue this, but who doesn't know how to accept being friends still despite this being an almost seven week ordeal.]
I don't...
[A faltering sigh.]
I offer you nothing in the grand scheme of things. Perhaps in the interest of not being... disappointed, we just don't get our hopes up.
[His jaw tightens because, yet again, he can't really find any argument against a brick wall that isn't just him slamming pragmatic logic uselessly on it.]
[He draws in a breath and then sighs it out, resigned.
He just stares at the fucking ground! Deliberating, conflicted. He does not want to make friends only to have to tell them goodbye.
They're a bit different. Maybe they could fudge their way into cross-planar teleportation, but others aren't so lucky. This isn't accounting for what's happening to him in Exandria right now, what will apparently happen later, according to Laudna's accounts. What's happening to them.
It takes some time to get the nerve.]
...I am terrified I won't see the three of you again.
she laughs, and lets go of him, brushing his arm off.]
Sorry, sorry. I should know better than to just hug without asking. Look - I promise I'm going to find a way. Okay? To see you, so you don't have to lose anybody.
[DOES THE THING like when a cat grooms after it's embarrassed, so he's just idly trying to fix his clothes when clearly he's flustered.]
It's fine.
[STOP APOLOGIZING. He's grown too used to being, what? Handheld, hugged, KISSED apparently.]
You can't promise anything like that. [...] Neither can I. Though there are two wizards between us, and inter-planar teleportation isn't unheard of even if it requires a high level of arcane experience.
I really think Gale can do anything he sets his mind to, Essek. So if I can't figure anything out, he's going to.
[he fucked the goddess of magic, bro, he can do whatever he wants]
You learn your inter-planar nonsense, and I'll fuss at Gale until his big brain comes up with a solution, because I'm not going home without the promise that I can see Vin, and Ash, and Suguru and Satoru. Every single one of them.
[she says this with such confidence that she cannot possibly have but. you know.]
[It's funny. This has shown up a handful of times, but it's up for debate if anyone took much noticed. He is very confident in his wizardry. Maybe too confident; that's his downfall. Familiar. Two of them.
Anyhow, he is confident in his wizardry, but he is not confident in anything else. Not in his trust of other people, not in friendships, not in romance, not in the fate of the world as it quivers beneath cosmic destruction.
It's funny that Karlach's sheer refusal to not be determined against all odds is... kind of... reassuring? He believes in her belief.]
but she watches him sort of work through this a little, get to a place where he can be a little reassured, and smiles. her tail swishes back and forth.]
[LISTEN. It's fine. It took him a few moments, but it's FINE. Why is it now more awkward in the settled silence than it had been when he was desperately trying to work through his feelings regarding friends and shit????
Glancing away.]
We can talk about it later, after we know whether we succeed or fail.
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[hhhehehe]
And I will be sticking to my cowboy, but somehow, I've collected a bunch of men who have low opinions of themselves and I've got to put in extra work.
[she sounds amused.]
I hope I get to see you again, after all this. If we make it.
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...
[None of those men are him, so he's golden. :')]
If we make it. [...] Why? Why... do you want to see me again?
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What d'you mean why. Do I need a reason other than we're friends?
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I don't...
[A faltering sigh.]
I offer you nothing in the grand scheme of things. Perhaps in the interest of not being... disappointed, we just don't get our hopes up.
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You haven't got to offer me anything. Ugh. [folds her arms.] All I do is hope, so - denied.
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oh my god]
You... [MOUTH OPEN. MOUTH CLOSED.] Don't you understand once this is all over, we may not even be able to say goodbye?
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I'm not actually an idiot. I do understand that, I just don't care.
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I don't understand the two of you at all... Fine.
[FINE!]
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[who else is giving him grief...]
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Gale.
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Is it such a crime for the two of us to not want to let you fuck off into the fog after everything?
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He just stares at the fucking ground! Deliberating, conflicted. He does not want to make friends only to have to tell them goodbye.
They're a bit different. Maybe they could fudge their way into cross-planar teleportation, but others aren't so lucky. This isn't accounting for what's happening to him in Exandria right now, what will apparently happen later, according to Laudna's accounts. What's happening to them.
It takes some time to get the nerve.]
...I am terrified I won't see the three of you again.
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well, he's going to get a hug. first of all. he gets a hug.]
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His face gets ten shades darker.]
KAR-lach!
[Like when air gets squeezed outta ya.]
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she laughs, and lets go of him, brushing his arm off.]
Sorry, sorry. I should know better than to just hug without asking. Look - I promise I'm going to find a way. Okay? To see you, so you don't have to lose anybody.
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It's fine.
[STOP APOLOGIZING. He's grown too used to being, what? Handheld, hugged, KISSED apparently.]
You can't promise anything like that. [...] Neither can I. Though there are two wizards between us, and inter-planar teleportation isn't unheard of even if it requires a high level of arcane experience.
[Gonna have to get to level 20 to learn Gate.]
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[he fucked the goddess of magic, bro, he can do whatever he wants]
You learn your inter-planar nonsense, and I'll fuss at Gale until his big brain comes up with a solution, because I'm not going home without the promise that I can see Vin, and Ash, and Suguru and Satoru. Every single one of them.
[she says this with such confidence that she cannot possibly have but. you know.]
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Anyhow, he is confident in his wizardry, but he is not confident in anything else. Not in his trust of other people, not in friendships, not in romance, not in the fate of the world as it quivers beneath cosmic destruction.
It's funny that Karlach's sheer refusal to not be determined against all odds is... kind of... reassuring? He believes in her belief.]
...Alright.
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but she watches him sort of work through this a little, get to a place where he can be a little reassured, and smiles. her tail swishes back and forth.]
Alright.
[then it's settled.]
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Glancing away.]
We can talk about it later, after we know whether we succeed or fail.