[ a man who is realizing that he may have been acting as an emotional support animal ]
... I will, of course. I won't ever stop following the light. [ his hand comes up, and rests on his chest - as it so often does. it's cold, and empty, and hollow, just... just like it was before he came here. no monster, but no flame. he didn't survive it being stolen, and now... he wouldn't survive it here, either.
you are weak, rondo ravus. his thoughts echo, in a voice that isn't his own. he shakes his head, trying to clear it off. ] I hope I haven't disappointed you.
No. In fact... [ he hesitates, glancing away briefly before looking back. ] In fact, I would say, I rather admire your ability to... hold fast to your beliefs despite the terrible circumstances.
rondo looks touched, at least - big, wide eyes, for a moment, and then he looks down, and nods - it clearly leaves a ripple effect, as some of those miserably awful, sazantos voiced thoughts melt away. little does rondo know that this is the same trait that sazantos admired about him, too.
he takes a deep breath. in, and out. ]
...Thank you, sir. [ hope is the thing that kills you, hope is what keeps you alive. ] I have to. If I don't, then... I will have forsaken everything that was taught to me. That's what it means to walk with the Flame.
truly the most miserable, the easiest to be burdened by knowledge and worry are the ones who cannot understand how others remain vigilant and positive.
but they can admire it. ]
I am certain it is one of the few things he wanted to protect most, that unyielding Flame. Having it lost in him means he could see it burning brightly in you.
You have taught me... that perhaps, in certain circumstances, a little... faith is not necessarily a bad thing.
[ there's something about that that just stuns him, too. gaining war's admiration, being able to teach him something - being able to pay back the tiniest bit of everything essek has given him upon arriving here. the idea of being something that sazantos wanted to protect, despite everything. the idea of being something that war wanted to protect, too.
his chin wobbles with the strength of trying not to cry, and as the surprise initially he fades, it turns into a wobbly, but no less genuine smile. ]
... You honor me. [ quietly. ] There... are many ways to have faith, and... many things we can have faith in. Perhaps none as important as the faith we have in the people we care for.
[ Like you and your brother. ] And I... I know that I have faith in you, too.
[ when you arrive neutral evil and yet again get bullied into being a better fucking person............. why.
there is a resigned sort of fatigue to him, but not necessarily a bad one? like when you have been brown-beaten down by friendship and all of that hot garbage. ]
It does not seem terrible to... have faith in your friends. So I think... I will try that now, going forward. Having faith in... my friends.
[ a disgruntled nnmm sort of noise bubbles up out of him. he's already dark and purple, so his face just grows kind of a deep indigo around the cheeks, and he quickly looks elsewhere. ]
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Miss Kate, too. [ MY POOR KATE SHRIEKS ] I never even noticed. She's...
[ I can't even support her, now. ]
I feel... lost, War.
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Yes, Kate has been suffering for a long time in silence.
[ he sighs very gently. ]
You are lost. However, that does not mean you can't find your way back. You now have to help those there with the tasks at hand, and Nehan as well.
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... I will, of course. I won't ever stop following the light. [ his hand comes up, and rests on his chest - as it so often does. it's cold, and empty, and hollow, just... just like it was before he came here. no monster, but no flame. he didn't survive it being stolen, and now... he wouldn't survive it here, either.
you are weak, rondo ravus. his thoughts echo, in a voice that isn't his own. he shakes his head, trying to clear it off. ] I hope I haven't disappointed you.
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No. In fact... [ he hesitates, glancing away briefly before looking back. ] In fact, I would say, I rather admire your ability to... hold fast to your beliefs despite the terrible circumstances.
Here and back home.
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rondo looks touched, at least - big, wide eyes, for a moment, and then he looks down, and nods - it clearly leaves a ripple effect, as some of those miserably awful, sazantos voiced thoughts melt away. little does rondo know that this is the same trait that sazantos admired about him, too.
he takes a deep breath. in, and out. ]
...Thank you, sir. [ hope is the thing that kills you, hope is what keeps you alive. ] I have to. If I don't, then... I will have forsaken everything that was taught to me. That's what it means to walk with the Flame.
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truly the most miserable, the easiest to be burdened by knowledge and worry are the ones who cannot understand how others remain vigilant and positive.
but they can admire it. ]
I am certain it is one of the few things he wanted to protect most, that unyielding Flame. Having it lost in him means he could see it burning brightly in you.
You have taught me... that perhaps, in certain circumstances, a little... faith is not necessarily a bad thing.
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his chin wobbles with the strength of trying not to cry, and as the surprise initially he fades, it turns into a wobbly, but no less genuine smile. ]
... You honor me. [ quietly. ] There... are many ways to have faith, and... many things we can have faith in. Perhaps none as important as the faith we have in the people we care for.
[ Like you and your brother. ] And I... I know that I have faith in you, too.
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there is a resigned sort of fatigue to him, but not necessarily a bad one? like when you have been brown-beaten down by friendship and all of that hot garbage. ]
It does not seem terrible to... have faith in your friends. So I think... I will try that now, going forward. Having faith in... my friends.
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You - you don't have to pause, before you say your friends....
[ TEASING? FROM RONDO RAVUS? but animal crossing flowers bloom up by his head so, maybe that's a good thing. ]
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My friends.
[ THERE ]
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PUTS OFF ANIMAL CROSSING FLOWERS ]
There you go! See? And you have so many of them, War.
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I'm... not so sure about that.
[ rondo is right (essek doesn't think this). ]