...I wanted to leave last weekend, a-and so I was... frustrated that no one did anything about Ashlyn... I couldn't find a way to leave that wouldn't only hurt others, especially when anyone I admitted it to didn't want to let me go...
[more guilt, more regret.]
Muelsyse and Essek helped me, as well, b-but when I spoke with Lavi, he told me that... that he's always been someone who won't hold on to hope. That he tried to learn how to do that here because of Karlach, and because of... me. He wanted to hope that this would all work out, because of me, and he... wanted me to be there with him, i-in the end, too.
[...]
I never thought of myself as... as being capable of doing that for someone, until he said that I had, s-so I thought that maybe... maybe if someone else could hold onto hope because of me, then I could try to keep doing it. I said that I'd stay.
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[more guilt, more regret.]
Muelsyse and Essek helped me, as well, b-but when I spoke with Lavi, he told me that... that he's always been someone who won't hold on to hope. That he tried to learn how to do that here because of Karlach, and because of... me. He wanted to hope that this would all work out, because of me, and he... wanted me to be there with him, i-in the end, too.
[...]
I never thought of myself as... as being capable of doing that for someone, until he said that I had, s-so I thought that maybe... maybe if someone else could hold onto hope because of me, then I could try to keep doing it. I said that I'd stay.