[ Maybe this, too, was a gamble, but he's not supposed to be making those as often these days. So, he thinks of it instead as what it should be, a natural progression between two people who have come to rely on each other. It sounds simple that way, even plainly obvious, and it's so incredibly normal for the average person, but for someone like Aventurine who has rarely had the chance to create genuine relationships, it's uncharted territory.
It's new and exciting, a different kind of thrill-seeking that has him looking forward to each day while terrifying him at the same time. His own fingers curl around the front of Nehan's shirt, a small tremble to his hand and an old habit any time he's afraid. After all, who'd know better than Aventurine the obstacles they're likely to face in the coming days? What suffering they've yet to blindly run into?
But in the end, they're all obstacles to overcome, and he's overcome them before. He'll do it again.
Right now, what he chooses to focus on is the warmth that spreads in his chest at Nehan's nod, how the two of them curl back into each other as if this was always their destination. It takes his mind off of the pain and uncertainty, and he pulls Nehan down onto the bed with him until they're lying as comfortably as they can on this rather uncomfortable hospital bed.
He'll get some more rest. And like the other times he's spent sleeping next to Nehan, his sleep will be quiet and dreamless. ]
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It's new and exciting, a different kind of thrill-seeking that has him looking forward to each day while terrifying him at the same time. His own fingers curl around the front of Nehan's shirt, a small tremble to his hand and an old habit any time he's afraid. After all, who'd know better than Aventurine the obstacles they're likely to face in the coming days? What suffering they've yet to blindly run into?
But in the end, they're all obstacles to overcome, and he's overcome them before. He'll do it again.
Right now, what he chooses to focus on is the warmth that spreads in his chest at Nehan's nod, how the two of them curl back into each other as if this was always their destination. It takes his mind off of the pain and uncertainty, and he pulls Nehan down onto the bed with him until they're lying as comfortably as they can on this rather uncomfortable hospital bed.
He'll get some more rest. And like the other times he's spent sleeping next to Nehan, his sleep will be quiet and dreamless. ]