Oh, well, it's just so far removed from anything I'd have ever expected to hear from you, you know?

[That's what makes it complicated... GOD THOUGH. Nadia isn't here to guilt him out of his guilt so everyone just gets to suffer.]

I don't think that I neglect myself, though? [HE TAKES CARE OF HIMSELF!! Physically.] And I do know that! That's why I'm still here, after all.

[If he thought Nadia would be fine without him his ass would have just confessed about Ichiban since he'd have gotten the Vicks either way.]