[ if there's nothing he wants more then let that be his guiding light through his suffering later.... ]

I don't give Nadia or any of the other people I'm treating anything that I don't test on myself first. So I do have to alter my own body at times.

[ SELF-EXPERIMENTATION HOURS CONTINUES. SOMETIMES YOUR BODY IS JUST ANOTHER TOOL FOR THE EXPANSION OF SCIENCE AND RESEARCH. but it's funny because scien truly will take the arrow long before he lets innocent people suffer

anyway, ]

I just haven't taken today's dose. I was working.