[ the way that normally scien would tell lucas and nadia about everything that goes into their bodies because he wants to be better than ortie who would just randomly drug them both—but at this point, scien would take the option of a lie by omission than have his dog suffer any more. god's arrogance of deciding that he knows best.
he's not sure how much he fully believes that lucas will keep his word and refrain from taking his drugs. he mentally runs calculations in his head of if he has the materials needed to counteract the drug, just in case. however, just to apply some pressure on the emotional wound—the healing alongside the pain: ]
... this is your final trial. You've cured her, and now just need to let yourself be cured.
Then you will have the rest of your life to come to terms with what you've done.
[ it is the carrot and the stick.
to give lucas the option of a future to selfishly keep living, even though he's taken so many lives. just for the sake of taking care of his sister, who does still desperately need him. and to simultaneously acknowledge that it doesn't erase the damage of his sins. if he lives a long life, then he will have that much longer to face penance before giving in to hades.
(scien does think it will get better. when the catholic guilt subsides, because no human is capable of feeling such an extreme emotion forever and needs to eventually return to homeostasis. when lucas remembers how much he loves teaching, and how ecstatic he'll be when nadia is able to take her first steps into the sunlight without worry. scien just doesn't mention it because lucas doesn't want salvation right now; even though scien is already thinking of how to orchestrate it in the background.) ]
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he's not sure how much he fully believes that lucas will keep his word and refrain from taking his drugs. he mentally runs calculations in his head of if he has the materials needed to counteract the drug, just in case. however, just to apply some pressure on the emotional wound—the healing alongside the pain: ]
... this is your final trial. You've cured her, and now just need to let yourself be cured.
Then you will have the rest of your life to come to terms with what you've done.
[ it is the carrot and the stick.
to give lucas the option of a future to selfishly keep living, even though he's taken so many lives. just for the sake of taking care of his sister, who does still desperately need him. and to simultaneously acknowledge that it doesn't erase the damage of his sins. if he lives a long life, then he will have that much longer to face penance before giving in to hades.
(scien does think it will get better. when the catholic guilt subsides, because no human is capable of feeling such an extreme emotion forever and needs to eventually return to homeostasis. when lucas remembers how much he loves teaching, and how ecstatic he'll be when nadia is able to take her first steps into the sunlight without worry. scien just doesn't mention it because lucas doesn't want salvation right now; even though scien is already thinking of how to orchestrate it in the background.) ]