but in the end, none of this has been about convincing lucas one way or another. he was sincere in his simple statement that he expects nothing in return. not lucas's allegiance nor his kindness. his company was enough.
failing that, then his recovery is enough. clearing his head. getting him home.
there is a part of scien that thinks about the fifty percent chance that lucas will be a killer again come thursday, this time agains his will. he knows he will be working even harder this week to find an alternative to the ritual that will not require him to die. (he doesn't know yet that he will fail. he doesn't know that once again, he will fail one of the few times it truly matters.) ]
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but in the end, none of this has been about convincing lucas one way or another. he was sincere in his simple statement that he expects nothing in return. not lucas's allegiance nor his kindness. his company was enough.
failing that, then his recovery is enough. clearing his head. getting him home.
there is a part of scien that thinks about the fifty percent chance that lucas will be a killer again come thursday, this time agains his will. he knows he will be working even harder this week to find an alternative to the ritual that will not require him to die. (he doesn't know yet that he will fail. he doesn't know that once again, he will fail one of the few times it truly matters.) ]
... be careful.