[HE'S NOT SO SURE ABOUT THAT. HE DOESN'T HAVE SCIEN'S INSANE CONFIDENCE!!!! His own headspace feels like it's constantly teetering on the edge of collapse, and he keeps having to tape himself back together from all the spills and messes that he can't contain, so this feels like a distant, far-off what if.
There's another long pause, though. He thinks again about a distant version of himself, who had gotten well and watched Nadia get well, and lived and worked alongside Scien for so long, only for Scien to decide he wasn't needed and leave. He thinks about Scien's words, about him seeking what the universe may offer and finding the maddening entity Lucas Proust yet again.
He still doesn't understand it, really. Doesn't understand what Scien finds so apparently captivating. It confuses him, infuriates the implanted parts of him that are still so full of venomous fury. But it does make things feel just a little less lonely.]
...If this is the selfishness of the devil, then I certainly won't be seeing anything but Hades.
[JUST TWO SINNERS!!! BUT ONE IS WORSE THAN THE OTHER BY FAR AND BREAKING NEWS IT'S NOT SATAN!!!!]
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There's another long pause, though. He thinks again about a distant version of himself, who had gotten well and watched Nadia get well, and lived and worked alongside Scien for so long, only for Scien to decide he wasn't needed and leave. He thinks about Scien's words, about him seeking what the universe may offer and finding the maddening entity Lucas Proust yet again.
He still doesn't understand it, really. Doesn't understand what Scien finds so apparently captivating. It confuses him, infuriates the implanted parts of him that are still so full of venomous fury. But it does make things feel just a little less lonely.]
...If this is the selfishness of the devil, then I certainly won't be seeing anything but Hades.
[JUST TWO SINNERS!!! BUT ONE IS WORSE THAN THE OTHER BY FAR AND BREAKING NEWS IT'S NOT SATAN!!!!]