[ there is something in scien's emotions that answer that feeling before he finds this words. no. this isn't enough. while scien is here for lucas so devotedly, he also thinks lucas should experience a better life than this. ]

Then endure it to the best of your ability when the rest comes to you regardless. Warm days spent outside with Nadia. A classroom of your bratty but bright students. A long, healthy life, probably with a cat or two at this rate, and my hand waiting for yours.

[ because scien is a person who is made of greed—so rarely for himself, but so easily for others. he will carry onto this selfishness for lucas until he feels it's safe enough to want on his own.

. . . even if there is a part of him that doesn't hate it. to be told that this—that he—is already enough. ]