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[He can probably recognize this, at least partially, for what it is. Giving him the opportunity to decide how much or how little he wants to elaborate on, even if they both know it's pointless.
His lips press into a thin line.]
I don't know you at all, but you've known me for too long. It's unnerving. [His brain supplies: I don't want you to know.
He doesn't want anyone to know him beyond what he wants them to know, but Scien especially. It riles that deeply ingrained part of him that's going to take so long to extract, in addition to just being upsetting to a very private person on a more general and normal level.]
His lips press into a thin line.]
I don't know you at all, but you've known me for too long. It's unnerving. [His brain supplies: I don't want you to know.
He doesn't want anyone to know him beyond what he wants them to know, but Scien especially. It riles that deeply ingrained part of him that's going to take so long to extract, in addition to just being upsetting to a very private person on a more general and normal level.]
This early...?
[HE WAS RELATIVELY NORMAL UNTIL THURSDAY NIGHT AND SOMEONE'S JUST OUT THERE DOING OFF SCHEDULE NPC MURDERS HELLO. Christ though. Terrible. NOT WILL.]
...He hasn't shown up here yet, but I'll let you know when he does. [Imagine he just goes directly to hell instead.] Will the three of you be alright?
[HE WAS RELATIVELY NORMAL UNTIL THURSDAY NIGHT AND SOMEONE'S JUST OUT THERE DOING OFF SCHEDULE NPC MURDERS HELLO. Christ though. Terrible. NOT WILL.]
...He hasn't shown up here yet, but I'll let you know when he does. [Imagine he just goes directly to hell instead.] Will the three of you be alright?
[ he's not surprised. scien would probably also hate to be known randomly by like. a royal, back when they were alive. but it's a difficult thing to find a solution to ]
I'm not going to try to forget. So if it's about disparity...
You can keep asking me anything you want. There is no part of me that I would bother to hide from you.
[ scien is stand-offish, but once you get that first barrier of his attention, he is the most painfully honest and straightforward person in the entire fucking island ]
I'm not going to try to forget. So if it's about disparity...
You can keep asking me anything you want. There is no part of me that I would bother to hide from you.
[ scien is stand-offish, but once you get that first barrier of his attention, he is the most painfully honest and straightforward person in the entire fucking island ]
Ah...
[HE SEES. He has too many complicated feelings about that fucking guy to unpack right now but PESTO HE CARES ABOUT UNCOMPLICATEDLY AT LEAST. And War, even though they are not his favorite.]
But you'll be safe? This person won't be able to reach you in the night, will they?
[HE SEES. He has too many complicated feelings about that fucking guy to unpack right now but PESTO HE CARES ABOUT UNCOMPLICATEDLY AT LEAST. And War, even though they are not his favorite.]
But you'll be safe? This person won't be able to reach you in the night, will they?
[It's a difficult thing to find a solution to and Lucas knows that he's being unreasonable, because it's not like Scien did this intentionally, and it's something no one here has any control over. BUT HE'S STILL IRRATIONALLY IRRITATED... Scien is just too easy for him to lash out at, even when it's undeserved, which it hilariously often is.]
I feel I've asked you more than enough today.
[The emotional weight of the conversation is starting to catch up to him, and beneath the biting edge of annoyance, he just feels... tired. Not in any particularly depressed way, just in the way of someone who's dealing with so much all the damn time.]
I feel I've asked you more than enough today.
[The emotional weight of the conversation is starting to catch up to him, and beneath the biting edge of annoyance, he just feels... tired. Not in any particularly depressed way, just in the way of someone who's dealing with so much all the damn time.]
[ he shrugs, because he doesn't mind it. it's unreasonable and irrational and normally, he would take issue with both of those things. but neither of them are lucas's fault either. there is no point in getting riled up over the lingering remnants of eight years of brainwashing and abuse ]
It's an offer without expiration. I simply don't want you to be uncomfortable. It is more effort to hide things, so I don't bother.
If it makes you feel better, there's still plenty I don't know about you. But I will keep my questions to only what's necessary until you feel like some of the gap has been bridged.
It's an offer without expiration. I simply don't want you to be uncomfortable. It is more effort to hide things, so I don't bother.
If it makes you feel better, there's still plenty I don't know about you. But I will keep my questions to only what's necessary until you feel like some of the gap has been bridged.
[Scien really has endless patience for this fucking guy who is the hottest mess on the block.
This doesn't help make him feel any less uncomfortable, but it at least seems to ease his hackles a bit. That is also just because the emotional exhaustion is winning. He's experienced and learned so many things on this Tuesday that is just a Tuesday for Scien Brofiise.]
...I'll keep it in mind, then. [He doesn't know if he'll ever feel like the gap has been bridged, given it's one month until the ritual up against three years of knowledge, but the offer being there at all isn't a terrible thing. He looks back toward Scien.]
For now, I'd like to leave.
[I'm tired.]
This doesn't help make him feel any less uncomfortable, but it at least seems to ease his hackles a bit. That is also just because the emotional exhaustion is winning. He's experienced and learned so many things on this Tuesday that is just a Tuesday for Scien Brofiise.]
...I'll keep it in mind, then. [He doesn't know if he'll ever feel like the gap has been bridged, given it's one month until the ritual up against three years of knowledge, but the offer being there at all isn't a terrible thing. He looks back toward Scien.]
For now, I'd like to leave.
[I'm tired.]
[ they really did talk about so much today. scien nods, accepting. ]
Keep taking your medicine. Tea for your throat, and gently ice the outside to ease the bruising. [ this really was a medical check-up at first and then it became so much else.
but because scien knows that it became so much else, and that lucas has been mentally struggling for so much of it, that he feels the need to acknowledge that ]
... thank you, for enduring this long. [ the mental strain of being in front of someone who he wants to kill but doesn't want to kill, on top of the unpleasantries of generally interacting with scien brofiise. it's selfish of me to enjoy when you stay is his small whisper of a thought that he immediately talks over: ] Go rest.
Keep taking your medicine. Tea for your throat, and gently ice the outside to ease the bruising. [ this really was a medical check-up at first and then it became so much else.
but because scien knows that it became so much else, and that lucas has been mentally struggling for so much of it, that he feels the need to acknowledge that ]
... thank you, for enduring this long. [ the mental strain of being in front of someone who he wants to kill but doesn't want to kill, on top of the unpleasantries of generally interacting with scien brofiise. it's selfish of me to enjoy when you stay is his small whisper of a thought that he immediately talks over: ] Go rest.
Edited 2024-07-12 00:42 (UTC)
[NOT THIS LONG PAUSE. He's reminded faintly of when he was cursebrain insane and she'd also reacted similarly when he mentioned their invites to the parties.]
They have, though even one loss is a loss all the same. ...Are you surprised, or is that confusion...?
They have, though even one loss is a loss all the same. ...Are you surprised, or is that confusion...?
[He mentally notes it all - medicine, tea, ice - and nods somewhat absently. After his talk with Nehan, he'll take everything he needs to without fuss, though his bruising is old enough that he probably won't ice it.
The thanks gives him pause, though. The faint words that can barely be heard over Scien telling him to rest strike some strange chord in him, and his hands reflexively fold together, the grip briefly punishing. Beyond the exhaustion, his thoughts race, but he's far too tired to want to face any of that. For now, he eases back up to his feet, dusting himself off, straightening his clothing and fixing his hair so he doesn't look like he was just crying on the basement floor.]
...I'll return later.
[It's all he ends up saying, soft and quiet. It's a request he can turn down, but despite everything, he didn't hate this conversation. He didn't hate spending his time here.]
The thanks gives him pause, though. The faint words that can barely be heard over Scien telling him to rest strike some strange chord in him, and his hands reflexively fold together, the grip briefly punishing. Beyond the exhaustion, his thoughts race, but he's far too tired to want to face any of that. For now, he eases back up to his feet, dusting himself off, straightening his clothing and fixing his hair so he doesn't look like he was just crying on the basement floor.]
...I'll return later.
[It's all he ends up saying, soft and quiet. It's a request he can turn down, but despite everything, he didn't hate this conversation. He didn't hate spending his time here.]
[KNOW WHAT!!!!!
Lucas just sitting here for a second like is every single one of these fucks like this. What the hell is wrong with the Overseers. Be normal about interpersonal relationships, thinks Lucas, who is very normal about interpersonal relationships.]
You're aware that people don't quantify their ties in such simple ways, surely...
Lucas just sitting here for a second like is every single one of these fucks like this. What the hell is wrong with the Overseers. Be normal about interpersonal relationships, thinks Lucas, who is very normal about interpersonal relationships.]
You're aware that people don't quantify their ties in such simple ways, surely...
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